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Christine Ducommun was a happily married wife and mother of two, when-after returning to live in the house of her childhood-she began to experience panic attacks and night terrors. Says the author, "I sought therapy and there I discovered, to my shock and horror, that I had been sexually abused at the hands of my father at a very early age. I surely didn't want to believe it. But as my mind began to release bizarre flashbacks, my alters began to show themselves. Suddenly I lived a life even I couldn't understand: I was a devoted mother, wife and church leader but also a convicted thief, a promiscuous alcoholic and a prescription drug addict. Things got much worse before they got better." Eventually diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), Christine's story details an extraordinary twelve-year ordeal of coming to grips with the reemergence of competing personalities her mind had created to help her endure her early years. Therapy helps to reveal the personalities, but Christine has much work to do to grasp their individual strengths and weaknesses and understand how each helped her cope and survive her childhood as well as the latent influences they've had in her adult life. Fully reawakened and present, the personalities struggle for control of Christine's mind and her life tailspins into unimaginable chaos, leaving her to believe she may very well be losing the battle for her sanity. Christine's only hope to regain her stability was to integrate each one's emotional maturity while jettisoning the rest, until at last their chatter in her head could cease. This task, taken on by her gutsy therapist, proves to be the major struggle of her adult life. It takes her on a journey that few with her disorder have the courage or fortitude to travel. A candid look at the effects of sexual abuse, this "elegant" book shines a bright light on the fragility of the mind and the durability of the spirit. A story of courage, healing, identity and hope-a triumph of the human spirit.

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Christine Ducommun works privately with other victims of Dissociative Identity Disorder

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ONE

Great News—and an Odd Reaction

It had been six months since my husband, Rick, and I had moved our family into my childhood home where I had been raised. I was thirty-eight then, happily married with two young sons: Craig, who was five, and Cory, who was two. My husband had always wanted to live in the country always dreamed of life on a farmstead. Leaving town for a rural life seemed like such a good idea at the time, and was a financial lifesaver to boot.

We were in the trucking business but had lost two major contracts. Backed into a corner, we were going to be forced to sell the business' assets. We had not told any of our family any of this. The family that was currently living on the home farm acreage and was also a member of the same church we went to was interested in trading the property to us for our semi-truck, truck shop and townhome. It was an amazing coincidence and the arrangement just seemed too perfect to pass up. Rick already had a job lined up with a local farmer so we went ahead with the deal. We actually waited until the paperwork was signed and we knew when we were moving to tell my family.

Rick and I were both excited to have this news to tell and I thought for sure my parents would be equally excited. 'Mom, Dad, we have some news,' I said. My dad had been diagnosed with cancer and was in failing health. He was groggy and laying on one of the sofas in the living room. Mom came in the living room from the kitchen.

'What kind of news?'  Mom asked.

Rick was silent. 'I think you'll be happy for us,' I replied. Dad had raised himself up on one arm and proceeded to sit up.

'We have bought our home place, the farm sight,' I said.

It became very quiet; no one said anything for a few seconds. Dad leaned back. Mom sat down.

It was awkward. I began to babble to fill in the void. 'We have lost two big contracts and are forced to sell, and they wanted to trade us for the truck and the house in town. It is a really good deal for us and the kids will love the farm. Dad we can drive you out to see it. The yard is a mess and needs some clean up, but we can do that and there is a big red hip-roof barn there now. Rick is looking into raising some cattle.' I stopped out of breath.

'It's a big move,' Mom said. 'I will make us a coffee.' Then she went back in the kitchen.

'Would you like to drive out and see it?' I asked Dad again.

'I don't think so,' he whispered. 'Your mom has ruined every good memory I have of that place.'

I wasn't really sure I had heard him correctly and Mom was coming back in the room so I left it. We all left it. Nothing was mentioned to Dad again and he was dead a couple months later.

I just shrugged it off their strange reaction. To me, this turn of events seemed predestined; like this was where God wanted me to raise my children. With six acres of land, there was lots of room for the boys to play, build tree forts and have pets. I could even grow a nice garden. The acreage had a big hip-roof barn and even some corral space, so we talked about raising some livestock.

The house was the perfect family home. It was solid, well-built and spacious. White clapboard with black-trimmed windows, it was built in the early 1950's by a local carpenter who crafted it. My parents purchased it in 1959, and had it moved onto our yard right after our little house that Dad had built had burned down. This home was a two-story house with the kitchen and dining area on the main floor and a large living room. There were four rooms on the second floor: a large master bedroom, two smaller bedrooms and a tiny room that was the perfect craft room or an office. It also had a half-finished full basement, the completed part of which made an excellent playroom for Craig and Cory.

I loved the house because it had large windows that made it bright and cheery. It was set in a very pretty yard with a natural growth boreal forest running along the entire north side right behind the house. When the season was right you could find an abundance of wild flowers here, tiger lilies, bluebells, and marsh marigolds along with wild raspberries and strawberries.

It didn't bother me that I had almost no memory of my childhood here.  Sometimes I did wonder if that was normal, if other people didn't remember growing up. I was too busy to ask these questions of myself. When I did think about it, it was like I had arrived on the planet at age eleven.

 

And then it began, like now, another night where I had literally bolted up in my bed, enveloped by a thick blanket of foreboding and dread. Maybe it was a nightmare that woke me up so suddenly, but I had no recollection of it. I surveyed the room, my eyes adjusting quickly because of the bright moonlight flowing through the huge east windows. It must be a full moon or close to it, I thought. Everything was so peaceful, so quiet, except for the hum of the bedside digital clock that glowed an eerie green and read 2:00 am. Life was so perfect, and now, as the beautiful moonlight flooded into my home where my husband and sons slept peacefully, while I was terrified of whatever it was that was haunting me.

This was not the first time this had happened to me. The episodes had started in the late autumn, about five months or so earlier, not long after my father had died. Each time, I would awaken in the middle of the night with this haunting, unsettling feeling—no nightmares, no noise, no apparent trigger that I could think of—just a dreadful feeling. I hadn't told anyone about this. Who would understand? I had never heard of this happening to anyone.

I wasn't haunted only at night. I'd also had terrible, unexplained mood swings during the day. They were precipitated by the feeling that someone was watching me, like I was in imminent danger. Most of the time I was content; I'd be happily painting, wall-papering and giving the house my feel and touch. Then it would suddenly roll in like a summer thunderstorm: I was instantly afraid and overwhelmed. What was happening to me?

 

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Dancing Between the Tombstones

Three weeks after Dad's funeral I sat in my car outside the cemetery gates. Maybe it was my grief, but I couldn't remember driving there. The motor was running. I sat staring out at the grounds, covered under a foot of snow.  'How did I get here? Why am I here' I said out loud, completely confused. I finally got out of the car and made my way through the snowdrifts to Dad's grave. Suddenly in a voice I didn't recognize, with a laugh not my own, I threw my head back and started to laugh hysterically. The urge to dance overwhelmed me so there I was, arms in the air, my feet moving as best as they could in the deep snow, dancing between the tombstones like I was at a disco.

'I'm glad, I'm glad, I'm glad, glad, glad! I hate you, hate you, hate you!' I sang and laughed while kicking snow into the air. 'I'm happy you're dead! Happy, happy, happy!'

Then it hit me like a ton of bricks: I realized where I was and what I was doing. I ran back to the car, stumbling and falling in the snow several times, screaming and crying, tears streaming down my face.

I got back to my car and sat behind the wheel for several minutes trying to get my breath. This was unbelievable! This was insanity! Who would do such a thing? I looked around to make sure no one was watching. No one must ever know about this. Waves of guilt ran over me. What kind of daughter was I? What kind of Christian? I was shaking and nauseous.

I closed my eyes and tried to recall an image of my father's face so I could tell him how truly sorry I was for this terrible act I had just committed. But instead I could only pull memories of how his life had spiraled out of control in the last couple of years. With my newfound Christianity, I had worked very hard at trying to get Dad to quit drinking, especially after seeing the wonderfully positive changes in my husband's life when he had stopped drinking. But I had learned a lot about addictions through the Twelve-Step programs and knew you really couldn't force anyone to sober up: they had to make that decision themselves. As much as I knew that to be true, I had continued to try and with every failed attempt I resented him more, which I immediately followed with a load of self-induced guilt. A 'good" daughter should be able to help her father. And for sure, a good daughter shouldn't feel the way I just had about her dad. 

I stayed away from the cemetery as much as possible after that.

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Seven

The Haunting Turns Real

Rick and I had thrown ourselves into developing the farmstead. I especially loved the huge garden we'd planted. I tended it with pride, showing it off to all who visited. Rick had even built me a greenhouse, so I started all my own bedding plants. It produced with such profusion that I gave many trays away to neighbors.

I spent many hours cheerfully cleaning up debris, dead grass and trees. We worked tirelessly repairing things and building a handsome ranch style fence to separate the barnyard from the main yard where our house and garden sat.  I had a huge strawberry and raspberry patch that I bordered with an assortment of colorful flowers. The kids loved the snapdragons and used them in flower puppet shows. Delphiniums grew blue spikes over three feet tall. Towering over everything were sunflowers, which grew to heights of fourteen feet. We harvested tomatoes for jars of homemade soup, juice, salsa and pizza sauce.

The boys loved to hide in the lush garden growth, eating raw peas and carrots—as well as using them as ammunition in their robust game... (Christine Ducommun DIRECTORS OF THE BOARD)

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