One of Sixteen - Hardcover

Robitaille, C M

Hardcover

ISBN 10: 1452049785 ISBN 13: 9781452049786

Publisher: Authorhouse, 2010

Synopsis

Born in a small railroad city in the far corner of Northern Vermont on a bitter cold January day, Cora and her twin sister were births number twelve and thirteen to an already over populated family that was suffering from poverty, mental, verbal, manipulation and incest abuse. At a very young age Cora learned how to become extremely loyal to disloyal people in her life. Feeling like she was always a shadow behind her twin sister, Cora grew up feeling like she did not exist even though she knew she was very much alive. Even when she had doubt, she knew she was alive by placing her hand on her chest to feel her heart beat just to reassure herself. After years of humilation Cora decides to head into Canada to escape, only to find herself so conditioned to a disloyal and abusive life that she returns back to Vermont and marries right into the life she struggled so hard to get away from. After thirty years of living with a replica of her father, Cora finally with the help of Alanon and several counselors learns that she has been addicted to addicts her whole entire life. finally breaking free she removes herself from the only life she ever knew. Today Cora still lives in that small railroad city that is once again in ression and is in a shockingly state of prescription drug abuse and is still home to some families who suffer from the same unfortunate fate as she did. Even though she does not feel like a shadow any longer, she struggles every day to stay focused in her own recovery while she fights anexity and heart ache over watching her own sibblings and loved ones who struggle to fight their own addictions and recovery.

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Born and raised in Vermont within a large family, i found myself struggling through out most of my life with some sort of nervousness. Even though i had escaped the courageous struggle of being born into an alcoholic family, i still felt my life was not complete. I had lived with the disease and disloyalty of alcoholics long enough to create and mold my life for me, bringing me back to Vermont and falling in love with the same disloyalty and the disease. It took the tragic suicide death of my son at a young age of fifteen before i realized just how trapped and addicted i was to this disease. For the past seventeen years i have survived what i believe to be the most horrific verbal and mental abuse i have encountered since childhood, with none of this being possible with out the help of Alanon and counseling. Several days out of a week i would feel like the only sane thing i did was go to work. As a beautician, i would loose all my fears and anxieties when i had a client in my chair. Their stories were always different and took me away from my own fears, such as the D.S. books i would read. As luck would have it, i would always have to return home at the end of my working day. Some where in the past seventeen years the fears and anxieties that i was once able to conceal were now becoming stronger then i and began to control me. I found myself no longer able to hide in a clients story or a book. Like the alcoholics in my life, i too was now in a situation where i had no control over my own life until the day i finally told myself, " you are in control" Finally breaking free, i now live in confidence but i struggle everyday in recovery to stay clean of the abuse and the mental strain it takes to keep me there.

About this edition

• Publisher: Authorhouse
• Publication date: 2010
• ISBN 10: 1452049785
• ISBN 13: 9781452049786
• Binding: Hardcover
• Language: English
• Number of pages: 160