Entombed in Silence: Our Little Hearts Beat No More - Softcover

Noetling, Janeen

Softcover

ISBN 10: 0615214924 ISBN 13: 9780615214924

Publisher: Janeen DeGolier Noetling, 2008

Synopsis

The recipe for changing a life is simple; it is rarely easy. For myself, it seemed a slow trudge to nowhere. The main ingredient was the getting up each morning and putting one foot before the other; like a broken record, I got sick of it. I did it anyway.

About this title

Book Description:

Entombed in Silence came about in answer to what I and several of my sisters felt was a need for pain relief for our entire family of twenty children, of which I was the youngest.
It began as a book of my poems written over the space of twenty years along with brief two-three sentence paragraphs outlining my journey sprinkled in like Thyme in a savory stew.
Our intention was honorable as we all agreed the family would see we were all alike in our sufferings and know the possibility of healing. But as the weeks wore on, and the family found new ways to torment me and those who stood by me, the book evolved into an almost insurmountable task. Somehow I had to tell my truth without doing more harm to any living member of my family.
I worked long hours, days, and weeks, then the weeks turned to months and at last the book was ready for the general family. By then I was quite broke and wondering where this obsession with this family who did not want me would end.

I published the book on Lulu and waited. I sent links to my family members to a free copy uploaded to my website and I waited for some word.
They had shut the door on me. The push was on to get me gone from their lives, silenced, and discredited. I struggled for another year to understand their hate and jealousy and defended myself in the only way I knew how, on the DeGolier Family website at My Family.com. You see, not one of them had the courage to speak to me directly, and I had not the sense to see I was wasting my time.
In the fall of 2009 the incest family fear mongering mob succeeded in getting me out of their home territory. It landed me a night in St. Mary's Mental Ward in Rochester, NY for one night.
It was only one night because you see, I had already decided I would not go back into the suffering of the past. Whatever happened, I would get up and move forward. But that is another book.

About the Author:

My name is Janeen Brenda DeGolier Hunt Noetling with emphasis on DeGolier and Noetling because they were the worst and the best of me.
Noetling is the name of my friend/husband Peter. His dying wish was that I marry him and there was no gift I could give more precious. Peter is responsible for much of the positive side of me. I will always cherish him.
The youngest member of the DeGolier family of twenty children, I grew up in a house filled with fear, hate, jealousy, fountains of tears, verbal and emotional abuse, and incest, incest ruled my childhood.
I did not tell the entire story in my effort to spare the family notoriety, but in truth I was passed down like a too small shoe through three brothers, one nephew by the age of twelve, and at the age of 16 my father made his debut.
But my memoir was never meant to be an expose' on the DeGolier family. I wished only to lay my life before them in outline form and at the end encourage them to join hands and become the family we never were.

Entombed in Silence a very good book, my book of hope I call it. And it has helped some of my sisters, my children, cousins, and yes, many strangers.
Life has always been a struggle, first to survive, and finally in recent years, a struggle to reach beyond survival and live.
The greatest result of the past few years getting clobbered by the incest family system rules is that I am free, they gave me my walking papers, drew the double solid line between us and determined that I should be got 'into the system' with mental help for my delusional life caused by bi-polar I do not have. With savage cruelty they spread fear of me through the family.
I thank them for that. I know at last who I am and why I will never fit 'in my place' as one of them.
The future is a mystery and I rise each morning to meet the challenge.

About this edition

• Publisher: Janeen DeGolier Noetling
• Publication date: 2008
• ISBN 10: 0615214924
• ISBN 13: 9780615214924
• Binding: Paperback
• Edition number: 1