Feminista: A Novel - Softcover

Kennedy, Erica

Softcover

ISBN 10: 0312650612 ISBN 13: 9780312650612

Publisher: St. Martin's Griffin, 2010

Synopsis

Sydney Zamora is fiercely independent, aggressively opinionated and utterly self-made. Armed with feminist ideals and a fashionista's sense of style, this self-proclaimed feminista has reshaped her body, staked out her own little piece of Manhattan as a celebrity journalist and only dated men on her own terms. There's just one problem: Sydney has never really let a man in. And now that she's hitting her mid-thirties, she wants one. Badly.

Enter Mitzi Berman, a $40,000 a shot matchmaker forced on Sydney by her well-meaning sister-with-the-perfect-suburban-life (even if she does have a wife instead of a husband). Sydney is Mitzi's most challenging project yet: she's gorgeous but nearly impossible to set up with a man. Mitzi also has her eye on Max Cooper, scion of Harvey's department store, the city's chicest place to shop. But nothing could make either Sydney or Max Cooper run faster than Mitzi, with her inflexible instructions and her Brooklyn accent. And they might just wind up running into each other's arms.

About this title

About the Author

ERICA KENNEDY is a journalist who has covered entertainment and fashion for Us and In Style. She lives in New York City and Miami, Florida.

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CHAPTER ONE

Sydney Zamora decided she’d had enough. She tossed her crumpled napkin on the table and pushed her chair back as her confused date watched in disbelief.

“Where...” he stammered. “Where are you going?”

“Home.” She slipped into her coat and flashed a tight, angry smile. “Peace.”

She was furious at him, at herself, at the world, really, but Quo was no place to make a scene. It was the überhip restaurant of the moment, the kind of New York it spot that had an unlisted phone number and a menu people called “creative.” All the senior editors at Cachet had been raving that the Thai fusion fare was a-maaaaaaaaaazing, hype Sydney was disinclined to believe. It was never about the food at these places. It was about being seen.

And that was exactly what she didn’t want now. Beating a hasty retreat through the dimly lit, ridiculously pretentious subterranean dining room, Sydney flipped up the collar of her trench and donned her plaid newsboy cap, tugging the brim down low. With her healthy five-foot-nine-inch frame, bronzed skin, and chocolate waves of hair falling just past her shoulders, she stood out like a penny in the snow at these trendy hangouts where most of the women were white, blond, and thinner than Darfur refugees. Her honey-brown eyes flicked about the room, on the lookout for Omnimedia employees. The last thing she needed was for this to get back to the office. Those catty bitches (male and female) gossiped about her enough.

She didn’t see any of her colleagues, but Sydney knew nothing guaranteed safety in this stratum of the New York world. If someone on the wait-staff figured out where she worked, it was very likely that tonight’s embarrassing debacle would be tomorrow’s “Page Six” headline. On her own, she wasn’t “Page Six”—worthy (thank God), but working for Conrad Drake, Cachet’s celebrated editor in chief, made everyone at the magazine targets by association. It would be his name in boldface, not hers.

That was just one of the negative outcomes that could arise from this rash act, and as she hurried toward the exit, a little voice whispered, Go back. But Sydney Zamora rarely took unsolicited advice, not even from her own psyche, so it was a call that went unheeded. Instead, she powered forward. She had already been pilloried by the New York Post once in her life, and the potential threat of having them publicly humiliate her again only strengthened her resolve.

Feeling like the odds were stacked against her, whether this was really the case or just her own interpretation of events, always brought out the fight in her. She was, in her own mind, a crusader, an avenger of justice, a voice for the disenfranchised. A childless, more tastefully dressed Erin Brockovich, if you will. Her biggest regret was that she had not followed in her late father’s footsteps and become a civil rights attorney. It was a regret shared by many because with no class-action suits to fight, Sydney managed to turn everyone—her family, her coworkers, customer service reps at Verizon Wireless—into Goliaths against whom she felt compelled to wage battle.

So there would be no turning back now. Oh, no. If storming out of New York’s trendiest boîte resulted in an embarrassing item on “Page Six,“ so be it. To teach Kyle (and every useless man he represented) a lesson, she was willing to martyr herself.

She nevertheless made an emergency detour when she saw their waiter standing directly in her path and practically sprinted the last few steps to the staircase as if she were a paparazzi-hounded celebrity trying to make her way out of the Ivy to awaiting SUV.

She still had one last leg to go before she was out of the restaurant and in the clear, but once inside the stairwell, she grabbed the railing and rested against the velvet-covered wall, suddenly overcome with fatigue. Lately, she had been feeling so drained. Some days she could barely drag herself out of bed before ten. She knew her emotional exhaustion wasn’t about Kyle or her meaningless, soul-sucking job. It was about everything. And nothing.

She grew up believing she’d have it all. A Career with a capital C. A husband. Babies! She’d be the Enjoli woman, bringing home the bacon, frying it up in a pan, never never letting him forget he was a man! Who would’ve guessed the whole thing would turn out to be a scam, a cultural Ponzi scheme that would dupe every middle-class woman of her generation?

FUCK YOU, GLORIA STEINEM!

The only part of The Plan that had remotely worked out was that Sydney had (what some would consider) an enviable Career writing for Cachet, the glossiest of celebrity glossies. It was a soulless pursuit, but Sydney couldn’t complain because it paid well (as most soulless pursuits did). She had always expected, even relished the idea, that she’d have to muscle her way to professional success, while assuming Fate would take care of her love life, but exactly the opposite had happened. The cushy Cachet job had fallen right into her lap through a bizarre confluence of events, and finding Mr. Right was turned into a punishing exercise that had pushed her to the brink of total exhaustion.

This extended fling with Kyle was pointless, but that was the point. Now that most of her friends were married and breeding, she needed something someone to do to pass the time. Kyle was a fuck buddy and, as such, not an impediment to her finding a real relationship and a breeder of her own. If, at any time, she met a serious prospect, she would drop Kyle without a second thought.

Trouble was, the guys she liked weren’t husband material, and the men who were repulsed her. And she didn’t subscribe to the “Give him a chance, he might grow on you” theory of dating either. Within five minutes of meeting a man she could tell if he was dateable or simply doable. Most of them were neither.

Now that her clock was officially ticking, dateable didn’t even cut it anymore. She needed to find a meaningful relationship, a marriageable mate, a genetically healthy provider with motile sperm. It was a complete fucking drag.

She’d been telling herself she had time, plenty of time. As late as thirty-one, marriage and motherhood still seemed as far away as the moon, abstract concepts like IRAs or epidurals that she imagined she’d figure out when the time came. Well, she was thirty-three years old. The future was now.

The real kick in the ass was that she had spent her whole life striving to be independent! To not need a man, emotionally or financially, to make her whole. To never give her power away. All that Oprah shit. But if she wanted to have children the traditional way, she did need a man, didn’t she? And soon. Reproductively, she was on orange alert. That was the sick cosmic joke of it all.

CHAPTER TWO

Sydney hadn’t been so pissed, she might have become aroused when Kyle grabbed her arm and pinned her against the wall at the top of the staircase. “Sydney, what’s wrong with you?” he said, as if he was in any position to question anything. “You can’t just leave!”

Oh yeah? Watch me.

“We haven’t paid the bill,“ he said, trying to keep her from squirming away.

She looked up at him angrily but tried to avoid direct eye contact. Those misty green eyes could be her undoing. “You haven’t paid the bill.”

Kyle released her arm and rested his hand against the wall. “Look...”

Hearing that one word come out of his disturbingly sexy mouth in that humoring tone made her that much angrier. She hated when men who were clearly in the wrong tried to turn things around to make it seem like the woman’s fault! She knew what he was going to say. She was overreacting, being too emotional. She should calm down. Well, maybe she didn’t want to fucking calm down. She was mad as hell and she had every right to be!

f Since she’d landed the job at Cachet, every guy she’d “dated” made less money than she did. And for the same reason she always had a dollar and a kind word for a homeless woman but thought, Drunk! Druggie! Loser!when she passed a homeless man, she hadn’t respected a one of them. Women had to work harder for less money all while trudging around like sherpas loaded down with guilt and self-loathing. Every time a guy pretended not to see the check a waiter had presumptuously set before him, she’d think, If I can make it, why the fuck can’t you?

But she didn’t need to respect someone to screw him. In her experience, the sex was way hotter when you didn’t. Kyle was the male version of a dumb blonde, but the boy was a sexual savant, she’d give him that. It was amazing what he could do with just one finger. He was the first man ever to make her come from intercourse, which, being an all-around DIY girl, unnerved her at first. It still did... though not so much that she didn’t give him the opportunity three or more times a week.

She usually lost interest in men around the eight-week mark, but, due to his sexual prowess, she’d kept Kyle around for six whole months. He wouldn’t make it to seven. In the last few weeks, his liberal use of “let’s” and “us” and “we,“ in addition to his persistent pleas that she go see Spamalot when his okeydoke Midwestern parents came to visit, was speeding up the demise of what had been a perfectly lovely and mutually beneficial meaningless relationship.

Had she asked him to take her anywhere tonight? Of course not. She preferred to order in. That way, she had distractions—the phone, TV, Facebook—to stave off boredom. Going out to dinner meant they had to talk for two hours straight.

But Kyle had insisted. Just as he’d insisted on ordering a celebratory bottle of Veuve...

About this edition

• Publisher: St. Martin's Griffin
• Publication date: 2010
• ISBN 10: 0312650612
• ISBN 13: 9780312650612
• Binding: Paperback
• Edition number: 1
• Number of pages: 368