The Art of Disappearing: A Novel - Softcover

Pochoda, Ivy

Softcover

ISBN 10: 031265099X ISBN 13: 9780312650995

Publisher: St. Martin's Griffin, 2010

Synopsis

How do you know if love is real or just an illusion?

When Mel Snow meets Toby Warring in a dusty roadside bar, she is instantly drawn to the brilliant magician who can pull roses from thin air and conjure castles out of desert sands. They marry two days later, and begin a life together in the shadow of Las Vegas, where Toby hopes to make it big. Mel knows that magicians are a dime a dozen, but Toby is different―his magic is real.

But as Toby's renown grows and Mel falls more and more in love with his wonderments, she starts to realize that Toby's powers are as unstable as they are dazzling. She learns that he once made his assistant disappear completely, and couldn't bring her back. And soon she begins to wonder if the love they share is genuine or merely a fantasy, conjured up by a lost magician looking to save himself from being alone.

Ivy Pochoda's spellbinding and cinematic storytelling seamlessly fuses timeless magic to modern-day passion. Haunting and beautiful, The Art of Disappearing is an imaginative and captivating love story destined to enchant readers for years to come.

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About the Author

Ivy Pochoda graduated from Harvard University with a degree in Classical Greek and English. She was a champion squash player and a six-time member of the United States Women's National Squash Team. She was the Spring 2009 James Merrill House Writer-in-Residence. She lives in Brooklyn, New York. The Art of Disappearing is her first novel.

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Art of Disappearing One

I married Tobias Warring in the Silver Bells All-Nite Wedding Chapel in Las Vegas. It was a conventional start to our unconventional story. And it was an attempt to conjure something solid from the wind-scattered sands. Our faces were bathed in the pink and purple lights of the Stardust Casino flashing through a two-by-two-foot window behind the priest’s head. Our witnesses were a couple of underage punks from the QuikTrip who demanded a six-pack for their services. “Have a nice life,” lisped the boy with three rings through his lip, ripping the ring top from his beer. His girlfriend, anxious to reclaim her spot outside the convenience store, gnawed her chipped nails. The priest, an elderly Mexican in tinted sunglasses, complained about working the graveyard shift and told us he’d once led a pilgrimage of fifty blind children to the Corcavado, but had since fallen on hard times. He closed his Bible, switched off the crackly tape recorder playing “Love Me Tender,” and it was over.

We toasted our wedding at the Treasure Island casino with pink cocktails garnished with canned pineapple impaled on miniature sabers. We spent our wedding night at the Laughing Jackalope Motel. Our first kiss had been suggested by the priest: “Joos may kiss if joos want.”

 

I’d met Toby two days earlier in the Old Stand Saloon, which logged overtime as a casino, hotel, nightclub, restaurant, and employment center in Tonopah, Nevada—a five-minute town whose limits were marked by the Shady Lady brothel on the west and the Cherry Tree on the east. The black waiter, younger than the rest of the employees by at least thirty years, had a mouthful of shining teeth, sunken and scattered like forgotten headstones. When he told me that a man sitting in the back of the restaurant wanted to buy me a drink, his words whistled through the impressive gaps in his mouth. He said that the man had suggested white wine to go with my shrimp parfait. “Sounds good,” I replied, trying to peek at the stranger through the dingy reflection in the restaurant’s window. But all I saw was the waiter threading his way back to the bar, carefully avoiding an old man with an oxygen tank who was struggling to play the slots.

“I think the man in the back booth on the left,” the waiter said when he returned with my wine, “would like to join you.” He set down my glass with a wink that was misinterpreted by a retired madam at the next table eating the landlocked surf-and-turf special. She returned the wink, letting a shrimp tail drop from her lips. The waiter ignored her. “It’s good to bring a little magic into your life,” he added, showing me his disorderly teeth once again. “Not much blowing through this town nowadays,” he continued, applying a graying cloth to a corner of my table. And then he lowered his voice. “He’s a magician.”

His quiet words reverberated through the restaurant. The eaters, the toothless chewers, stopped scratching their silverware on their plates and stared at the waiter, whose voice had shattered their slot machine soundtrack. The no-nonsense town of Tonopah seemed uncomfortable with magic and the magician. With a censorious lip smack, the retired madam tucked the tip she was going to leave the waiter back into her purse.

So I allowed Toby Warring to enter my life. “Send him over,” I said, smiling at the waiter while twirling my wineglass on the uneven table. As I waited for the stranger to approach, I stared out the window, imagining a brief respite from my hours in empty buses and unfamiliar airport terminals—a momentary release from the hush of motel rooms and the solitary clink of my fork against my plate. I allowed my mind to wander, wondering whether the magician might, for a moment, make this particular set of surroundings feel like home.

As Toby approached, the jangle of the slot machines in the next room became a distant bassline clank, and their flashing lights spun into a steady orange glow. The silent eaters were content, for an instant, to savor their food, forks to their mouths. The clatter and crack of bused dishes vanished; even the waiter froze, his gray cloth dangling off the corner of a table. So it seemed that the magician and I were alone, moving toward each other at an accelerated speed—me leaning over the table, Toby striding silently among the immobile diners.

A glance would judge Toby surprisingly good-looking and surprisingly young for a guy who sends drinks to strange women. Although I had never seen him before, there was something familiar as he approached. His dark hair, dark clothes, and pale skin gave him a shadowy appearance, and somehow I felt that he, or someone like him, had often been watching me—from the back of classrooms or on the school bus, across the aisle in a train or from a corner in a museum gallery.

An uneven mop of black hair dangled in Toby’s eyes and dusted his ears. His features were elegant and angular. His eyebrows arched sharply, while his high cheekbones sloped away gracefully. And from behind the ragged fringe of hair shone eyes the same gray blue as the summertime river behind my childhood home. As the magician drew nearer, I noticed a slight stoop to his shoulders and deep lines—rivers of frustration and worry—that flowed over his temples and streamed down from his eyes. His hands were prematurely knotted with years of forcing air, an untamable medium, to produce rabbits, doves, and sometimes to support full-grown humans. He splayed these hands, as elegant as tree roots, on the table, and began to speak, dispelling a little of the dusty silence of my desert days.

“I’m not a big fan of shrimp in cream. Maybe the wine will wash it down,” he said, leaning over the splintering table. “Mind if I join you?” He had a voice that produced its own static, a voice that, while announcing itself grandly, was interrupted by blips of self-doubt, as if both the voice and the magician had grown used to mistrusting the physical world. A sandy voice filtered through the worn megaphone of the big top.

I gestured across the table. “Please.” And we exchanged names: his—Toby Warring, mine—Mel Snow.

“So, you’re a magician,” I stated rather than asked. “Can I see something?” Then I blushed, embarrassed to have asked the obvious. My eyes lingered on his hands spread wide on the wooden table.

Toby’s gaze followed mine. “At eight, I could stretch an octave. My adoptive mother said she’d never seen anything like it.” He looked out the window. “She was a concert pianist. She looked like the innermost member in a set of Russian nesting dolls.”

“I’m hopeless with music,” I offered.

“Living with a pianist is no guarantee of talent.”

I nodded.

“When I was old enough, my mother put away my toys and brought me to the music studio. We had a converted porch stuffed with four baby grands. I was terrible. When I played, it sounded as if I were grasping onto tree branches to survive a fall from a great height. My mother said my hands engorged the keyboard and spat out music.” He laughed. “They never should have adopted me.”

“And you, your father...,” I began, then clamped a hand over my mouth. “I’m sorry. I’m behind on conversational etiquette.”

Toby smiled. “And I am happy to have someone to talk to. My father was an anatomist. He looked like an owl. And he was more interested in the dead than in the living. He had no idea what to do with me. After my brief music career ended, I returned to what remained of my toys. Basically a children’s edition of Gray’s Anatomy and my blocks.”

“That doesn’t sound like much,” I said, trying to catch the magician’s mercurial stare.

Toby narrowed his eyes. “Blocks are perfect for mastering the art of illusion.”

“Good for substitution?” I asked.

“My blocks taught me that I could do magic.”

I raised my eyebrows, waiting for him to explain.

He shook his head. “That would be revealing too much. And you have told me nothing.”

“My parents aren’t as remotely interesting as an anatomist and a concert pianist,” I said.

Toby folded his hands.

I shrugged. “My mother doesn’t work, and my father is a minor league baseball scout.” Then I mentioned the name of the suburban town on the banks of the Delaware River where I grew up, which turned out to be only a few miles upstream from Toby’s childhood home.

“Perhaps we passed each other at a game or a dance?” I suggested, even then trying to join Toby’s story to mine without letting him know that I had barely attended school functions myself.

“Magicians don’t go to football games or dances. I didn’t even finish high school.”

“You ran away to join the circus?”

“Something like that. I did a little magic show to earn money. Birthday parties and weddings. I guess my teenage anxiety came through in my tricks. My shadow projections wept blood. Rabbits I pulled out of hats were covered in fake gore. The flowers I found up my sleeves were dead.”

“I guess you didn’t get too many repeat bookings?”

“Even though I could make balloon sculptures of all the famous castles in Europe.” Toby laughed. “So I left home. I went to a magic-and-circus school in California. I didn’t last very long. My classmates started to suspect that I perform magic without illusion.” He turned his hands over, showing me two square depressions.

“Your blocks?”

Toby nodded. “They showed up in places I never intended. Places I never sent them.”

I smiled. “Now you are revealing too much again.”

The magician bit his lip. “I didn’t mean to. Like my magic, this confession is catching me a little off guard.”

“How is magic performed without illusion?”

“Naturally.”

I didn’t reply.

“You don’t believe me.”

“I don’t know.” I took a sip of my wine. “What else do you have up your sleeve?”

“Would you believe me if I told you I have no idea?” Toby shook out his cuffs, producing nothing.

“I might. Can you change water into wine?”

“That’s a miracle, not magic.” He passed his hand over my glass, turning the last sip of wine from white to red. Now it was Toby’s turn to smile, arching his thin lips upward with his eyebrows. “Any better?”

I took a sip. “Not really.” I took another sip, trying not to wince. “Miracles,” I said, letting the word melt on my tongue. “That’s something I haven’t seen in a while. But I’ve been waiting.”

Toby held me in his gaze. “Have you?” He laughed and adjusted the cuffs of his shirt.

“Sure,” I replied. “For a civil man to send me a drink in a small-town saloon. That’s some sort of miracle.”

The magician blushed under his ivory skin. “I don’t know what your definition of miraculous is,” he said, suddenly shy. Then he passed his hand over my glass once more, refilling it from his palm. “Will this do for now?”

“It’s nearly water into wine,” I said.

Now Toby looked out the window and took a deep breath. “I’ve been waiting, too.”

“For?”

“In this restaurant now for three days. In this desert for several years, to see someone I felt comfortable buying a drink.”

I felt myself redden and quickly smoothed my hands across my face. In an instant, Toby’s surprisingly cool fingers covered mine. My cheeks burned. He withdrew his hand and looked away. A shrimp had appeared in my palm.

“I’m not going to ask how that got there,” I said.

“I was hoping for something more romantic. Things get a little disorganized.”

“Maybe it’s better that way.”

“Why?”

“A little disorder makes the order pleasant. It makes it bearable.”

The lines in Toby’s face smoothed out. “Everyone’s always told me the opposite.” He paused, hiding his eyes in the fading light outside the window. Toby pressed his fingers into the table. “Can I ask you something?” He didn’t wait for my response. “Does a little company make the loneliness more bearable?”

What loneliness? I almost asked. Even though it had stopped being true long ago, I wanted to tell the magician, I’m not lonely, I’m alone. There’s a difference. He, on the other hand, appeared always to have been lonely. But I didn’t explain. So we sat in silence for a moment, our eyes darting from the wooden wagon-wheel chandeliers to the window. In the streaky pane, I caught our reflection—the shaggy hair and stooped shoulders of the magician towering over my desert-dried blond ponytail. And for an instant, it seemed that all the other diners had faded away again, leaving us glowing a little too brightly against the Nevada night. I saw my green eyes flash in the glass while Toby’s gray irises slipped across the window like mercury. Before we could speak, we were disrupted by a clatter of falling coins.

I looked directly at the magician. He was shaking his cuffs. “Well, now,” he said. “Not a miracle, maybe, but a minor windfall.” He gathered up the coins and tied them into a polyester-blend gingham napkin. “Here.” He handed the bundle to me.

I shook my head.

“Keep them. You might get lucky on the one-armed bandits.”

“We’d have to split the money if that happened.”

“Magicians don’t gamble. Luck and magic don’t mix.”

I tucked the money into my bag. “For a rainy day, I guess.”

Toby pressed his lips together. I saw them tremble. And then he laughed a laugh so cool, it made me forget—if only for a second—the dinginess of the Old Stand Saloon. “Not much chance of that out here. Rain.”

“It wasn’t that funny,” I said.

Toby didn’t reply. But his mouth and eyebrows arched into a silent smile.

I replaced my glass on the table. “For the wine, thanks.” Sometimes I like to put the preposition first. I find it reassuring. Because I travel a lot, I like to give what I say a place and a purpose. While I’m on the road, I need an anchor, however temporary, before I’m swept along to my next small-town appointment. And now, in the company of this surprising stranger, I needed some ballast before the magician’s words swept me too far into the desert night.

“My pleasure. Tonopah’s not the sort of town you often find two strangers in. It’s worth some sort of celebration,” he said.

“To shrimp in a glass and wine from a box,” I said, holding up my glass. “Are you here often?”

“I did a few shows at one stage. I pretty much keep to high school auditoriums and state fairs. I’m not what you would call one of the more desirable magicians.”

“You seem like a pretty good magician to me.”

“I am a very good magician, but there are magicians who don’t think I should be allowed to perform in towns like this. Some people,” he continued, “some whole towns, and especially some magicians can’t handle the inexplicable, even if it’s just a simple trick.”

“Why don’t you go somewhere else?”

“I’ve been here so long.” Toby looked over my shoulder and out the window. Then he waved his fingers, dispensing his words into the vapors of overcooked roast beef. “Anyway, I’m still waiting for my big break. One day I’m going to play Vegas.” Now he fixed me with his glittering stare. “So, what draws you to a place like this?” he asked, leaning forward, making me worry about the cracks in my lips, the unripe olive tone of my skin—which was badly matched to my hair my mother always said—and the look in my eyes that may have betrayed my uncertainty about magic but not about the magician.

“I do a one-woman Penelope-and-Odysseus routine,” I said. “I’m a textile consultant for the hotel and restaurant industries. So I do both the weaving and the voyaging. Without the Sirens and the suitors,” I added. “Or the sorcery.” I caught his eye.

“Suitors and sorcery,” Toby echoed. I felt the silk slip of something between my fingers. I opened my hand and released a cascade of rose petals. ...

About this edition

• Publisher: St. Martin's Griffin
• Publication date: 2010
• ISBN 10: 031265099X
• ISBN 13: 9780312650995
• Binding: Paperback
• Edition number: 1
• Number of pages: 320