Otherwise Engaged - Hardcover

Eileen Goudge

Hardcover

ISBN 10: 0786274425 ISBN 13: 9780786274420

Publisher: Thorndike Press, 2005

Synopsis

A New York Times Bestselling Author

What if you could live the life you've always dreamed of? What if your choices could be made all over again? Bestselling author Eileen Goudge ponders "what if" in this tender, provocative and surprising tale of two best friends who exchange lives.

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About the Author

Eileen Goudge is the New York Times bestselling author whose novels include Otherwise Engaged, One Last Dance, Garden of Lies, and Thorns of Truth. There are more than three million copies of her books in print worldwide. An avid baker, she is the author of a cookbook entitled Something Warm from the Oven: Baking Memories, Making Memories. She lives in New York City with her husband, entertainment reporter Sandy Kenyon. Visit her website at www.eileengoudge.com.

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Chapter One

"I won't be long. My house is just down the road," Jonathon said as he pulled into the Great Neck station, its parking lot nearly deserted this early on Saturday. "You're sure you don't mind? It's just that it'd be sort of awkward, with Rebecca and all." He eyed Jessie anxiously.

"Really, Jon, it's okay." She flashed him her best we're-in-this-together smile.

They'd discussed it, and she'd told him she didn't mind waiting at the station while he picked up his kids at his ex-wife's, so as to avoid a possible scene. The truth was she did mind, but only a little, and why rain on the parade? He'd arranged this outing so she could meet Zach and Sara. She wasn't going to dwell on his calling it my house, which was only technically true. Nor would she think about the message it would send his kids, that Daddy's girlfriend wasn't quite kosher. She must avoid even using such words as kosher -- his family didn't need any reminders that she wasn't Jewish. Like the other day, when she'd mispronounced his Uncle Chaim's name, to rhyme with shame, and Jonathon had corrected her, saying it was Hiy-am.

"Thanks, Jess." His eyes were soft with gratitude, and she felt an answering tingle, reminding her of why she'd fallen in love with him in the first place. Besides looking like he'd stepped from the pages of GQ, he was caring and sensitive, with just enough of an edge to make him interesting. Now all she had to do was pass muster with his kids....

"No problem." Her mother had raised her to be a Good Sport, which meant that unless you were bleeding to death or having a heart attack, you sucked it up. Noting the flicker of uncertainty in his eyes, she placed a hand on his wrist, adding, "It's easier for everyone this way."

She was unbuckling her seat belt to get out when a wave of panic swept over her. "What if they don't like me?" She twisted around to face Jonathon, her stomach executing a slow cartwheel at the thought.

He frowned in consternation, absently brushing back the adorable Clark Kent comma of dark hair that was in the habit of falling over his brow. "It's bound to be a little awkward at first," he said in that slow, thoughtful way of his that let her know he was taking her concerns seriously. "But once they get to know you, I'm sure they'll love you as much as I do."

She wasn't so sure. Her stomach did another lazy half turn. "Still...I wonder if this is such a good idea." They were driving up to his parents' house in Rhinebeck. Jonathon saw it as a chance to kill two birds with one stone -- introduce her to his kids and his folks all at once -- but she was afraid she was biting off more than she could chew. Her best friend, Erin, back in Willow Creek, had advised against it, but when Jonathon first suggested it, Jessie had been so excited to be taking this next step, to be a part of his life, not just the faceless Girlfriend tucked away in the wings, that she hadn't thought it through at the time.

"Relax, it'll be fine. Mother and Dad...they're not your run-of-the-mill parents, I'll admit, but they're great people. You'll like them."

Yes, but will they like me? She forced herself to smile, more afraid of appearing neurotic than of the possible ordeal ahead. Lately it seemed she'd been focusing less on being herself than on how not to be like Jonathon's ex-wife. "I'm sure you're right. I'm just a little nervous, is all." Who hadn't heard the joke about the Jewish mother with her head in the oven because her son was dating a shiksa?

She thought back to when she and Jonathon had first met, six months ago, at the salad bar in her neighborhood Korean deli. She was spooning garbanzo beans over her greens when some internal radar caused her to glance up. A tall, dark-haired man stood in front of her. All she could see of him were his broad shoulders and the back of his head, but she felt a humming awareness, like when her cell phone was on vibrate mode. He must have sensed her presence as well because he turned around just then, as if looking for some salad fixing he might have missed while he surreptitiously checked her out. It was all she could do not to stare. This wasn't your average good-looking guy, just flawed enough to keep you from peering obsessively in the mirror, wondering what he saw in you. This was the kind that made you go limp all over, as if you'd been punched in the stomach.

He looked to be around her age, well over six feet -- he towered over Jessie, who was tall herself. His wavy hair was the glossy black-brown of molasses, flecked with gray at the temples, his eyes the blue of Van Gogh's Starry Night. His face had the planed, architectural look of a Ralph Lauren model's -- sharply defined jaw and cheekbones, full lips that curved enticingly, just begging to be kissed. Only there was nothing fey about him; he exuded testosterone.

She eyed the modest pile of greens in his plastic clamshell before her gaze dropped to his left hand, with its pale band on the ring finger where a wedding band must have been. Divorced, she thought. Recently, from the looks of it.

She realized she was staring when he flashed her a quizzical little smile, as if to say, Do I know you from somewhere? She became so flustered, the garbanzo beans went sliding off the spoon onto the floor, scattering every which way. Great, just great, she groaned inwardly. The cutest guy she'd seen in ages, and she'd blown it without even opening her mouth. But to her relief Mr. Tall-Dark-and-Handsome only made a joke of it, breaking into a soft shoe routine as he nudged beans out of his path with the toes of his loafers.

She cast a sheepish glance at the store owner, busy ringing up another customer's purchases. "I suppose I should offer to sweep up."

The man smiled, showing an adorably crooked front tooth. Another point in his favor -- she had an unreasonable distrust of men with perfect teeth. "Are you always this considerate?" he asked.

She shrugged. "It must be in my DNA."

"Ah, just as suspected. You're not from around here." He regarded her with bemusement, his head cocked to one side. "Let me guess -- Ohio? No, Minnesota."

Jessie mock-groaned. Though she'd lived in New York City the better part of fifteen years, her naturally blond hair, peaches-and-cream complexion, and body that looked equally suited to pitching hay or riding down Main Street on a parade float, screamed corn-fed. She was, as her darling landlord, Clive, had once wryly observed, "sooooo west of the Mississippi."

"Consider it a compliment," the man said. "You look like the kind of person who means it when she says, 'have a nice day.'"

She grimaced and made a shoveling motion to indicate that he was only digging himself in deeper. But the ice was broken, and maybe something else as well...the firewall she, like most single women in Manhattan who'd been dashed against the rocks of their romantic aspirations, had erected around herself. They chatted for a minute while they helped themselves to salad fixings. When he finally got around to introducing himself, "Jonathon. Jonathon Silver," holding her gaze a beat too long and giving her hand a little squeeze, as if to let her know that he didn't make a habit of hitting on strange women, she felt as if she'd known him all her life.

Now, seeing the love and concern in his face, she felt her reservations melt away. On impulse, she leaned over, taking his face in her hands, and kissed him full on the mouth. He responded greedily, putting his arms around her and pulling her in tight, reminding her of what a sacrifice it'd been dragging herself out of bed this morning just after dawn, instead of making slow, luxuriant love as they usually did on weekend mornings.

She thought of last Sunday, at her place, when he'd surprised her with breakfast in bed. The pancakes were a little soggy, but the raspberries on top more than made up for it. She'd pointed to them, asking, "Where did these come from?" She couldn't remember the last time she'd bought raspberries, they were so pricey out of season.

"From the corner market," he'd told her. He'd looked so adorable, with his hair as rumpled as the bed, it was all she could do not to drag him back under the covers with her, breakfast be damned. "Sorry they're a little squished. It was the last box." She'd looked out the window and seen that it was sleeting outside. He'd gone out into that to buy her raspberries, knowing how much she loved them. There was something so sweetly old-fashioned about it, tears came to her eyes. It'll work out, she told herself. It has to...

Leaving the box of chocolates for his parents on the front seat, she climbed out of the car. "Be back before you know it," Jonathon called cheerily out the open window, his frozen breath trailing vapor as he pulled away from the curb.

She settled on a bench, wrapping her arms around her to ward off the cold. It was January, a month when even the English ivy along the embankments waved in tattered surrender. She shivered as a gust of wind sent crumpled wrappers and dried leaves scuttling along the tracks below. She wished she'd worn her down jacket instead of her more fashionable, but lightweight, suede one. Sensible boots, too, not the J. Tod loafers she'd splurged on with the check from Atlantic Monthly.

Jessie fished her notebook from her shoulder bag and began jotting down some thoughts on a plastic surgery piece she planned to pitch next week to Kate, the senior editor at Savvy magazine. By the time she glanced at her watch, twenty minutes had gone by. She frowned. There must have been some sort of last-minute holdup. Or maybe Rebecca had decided to throw a fit regardless. Wasn't Jonathon always saying she could make a Shakespearean tragedy out of a missed bus? Oddly enough, Jessie felt she knew Jonathon's ex-wife, a woman she had yet to lay eyes on, better than people she'd known all her life. But of course she only knew what Jonathon had told her.

Twenty minutes stretched into half an hour. Jessie began to worry that something was really wrong. But wouldn't Jonathon have called? She checked her cell phone to make sure it was still on, her worry turning to irritation. What could be so earth-shattering that she had to be kept shivering in the cold without so much as a courtesy call?

After what seemed an eternity, she heard the toot of a car horn and looked up to see Jonathon's midnight blue Nissan glide up to the curb. She jumped to her feet and began walking toward it, only to come to an abrupt halt a few yards away. A teenage boy with Jonathon's blue eyes and wavy dark hair occupied the seat in front. But it was a girl peering out the window in back, her eyes red slits in her tear-swollen face, that set off a trill of alarm.
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A train rumbled in the near distance, and for a wild moment it seemed the deus ex machina Jessie's creative writing teacher in college had labeled the province of cheap fiction. The screech of brakes as it slid into the station was a siren call, urging her to jump on board -- she'd be at Grand Central in less than an hour, with the whole rest of the day to do as she pleased. Coffee and Danish at Le Bergamot with Clive, if he was around, followed by the new Muriel Spark novel she'd picked up yesterday. Or, if the rain that was threatening remained at bay, the El Greco exhibit at the Met she'd been wanting to see.

Only a sense of obligation, along with a spark of hope that the day might be salvaged yet, kept her from bolting. She paused just long enough to take a deep breath before climbing in the backseat next to the damp, crumpled heap that was Jonathon's daughter.

"Hi, I'm Jessie. You must be Sara." She put on her friendliest west-of-the-Mississippi face as she stuck out her hand, from which Sara recoiled as if from a dead fish before turning her back.

Jonathon twisted around to give Jessie a rueful little grimace. "Sorry we're late," he apologized. "Sara couldn't find her sneakers." As if the real reason for the delay wasn't painfully obvious. In a misguided effort to smooth things over, he announced brightly to no one in particular, "Jessie's a writer." When neither child remarked on the fact, he went on, "Sara's our budding author. Sweetie, maybe Jessie could give you some tips."

Sara shot her father a murderous look. From the photos Jessie had seen of Jonathon's ex-wife, Sara took after her mother. She had Rebecca's straight, honey-colored hair and wide-set brown eyes, her petite build. In low-rise jeans and a pink Hello Kitty sweatshirt she looked younger than her age, and at the same time old beyond her years.

"Zach's our resident athlete," Jonathon went on in that fake hearty tone as he edged the Nissan into traffic. "He holds the school record in the hundred-yard dash and took second place in the regionals."

"Daaaad," Zach groaned.

"You should hear how he talks about you behind your back," Jessie said.

Zach turned to give her a halfhearted smile that showed a mouthful of metal. Jessie's hopes were briefly buoyed, until Jonathon, after they'd gone several miles without a peep out of Sara, called over his shoulder, "You okay back there, sweetie?"

Sara went on staring mutely out the window. Jessie couldn't help thinking that if it'd been her at that age, she'd have felt the flat side of Beverly's hand. If there was one thing her mother refused to tolerate, it was rudeness, especially toward adults.

But could Jessie blame the girl? Divorce was hard enough on kids without their parents' love lives complicating the matter. And what could Jonathon have been thinking, forcing them to sit together back here? He should have insisted that Zach sit in back.

When the silence became too much, filling the car like some noxious emission, Jessie took another stab. "You must be anxious to see your grandparents," she said, addressing the wall of Sara's resolutely turned back. Jonathon's parents, both retired professors, traveled extensively, so according to Jonathon the kids didn't see much of them.

Sara swung around to face her. "I was when I thought it was just us."

"You knew she was coming. Dad told us," Zach reminded her.

"I know what he told us," Sara shot back. Clearly, she hadn't believed her father would actually go through with it.

She has a point, Jessie thought. I was crazy to agree to this.

"Guys, please. You're making me look bad here," Jonathon cajoled. "What happened to your manners? Jessie's our guest."

"But Mom said..."

"Your mother has no say in this," he cut her off, gently but firmly.

Sara lapsed back into mutinous silence.

The spark of hope went out like a guttering wick exposed to an icy blast. Be careful what you wish for, Jessie thought. She'd been fooled by her closeness with her fourteen-year-old goddaughter into thinking this would be, if not a piece of cake, then at least the first step toward a meaningful relationship. But Sara wasn't anything like Kayla. And in all fairness, in her shoes would Jessie have been any happier about the situation?

The drive to Rhinebeck seemed endless. Jessie and Jonathon's joint effort to lighten the atmosphere was about as effective as rubbing sticks together to make a fire. Sara remained mute, and Zach only grunted from time to time. After a while, Jessie subsided into silence as well. When Zach turned on the radio, tuning it to a rock station, the blare came almost as a relief.

Jessie's nerves were frayed, tiny muscles twitching under her skin, when they finally pulled up in front of the Si...

About this edition

• Publisher: Thorndike Press
• Publication date: 2005
• ISBN 10: 0786274425
• ISBN 13: 9780786274420
• Binding: Hardcover
• Language: English
• Edition number: 1
• Number of pages: 512