I'm Dancing as Fast as I Can

Discover the captivating journey of a woman who almost lost everything on her road to recovery.

An Emmy-award-winning documentary producer, Barbara Gordon has a man she loves, an amazing group of friends, and a stunning apartment in the heart of Manhattan; yet, she is barely aware of the fact that her life is about to spiral out of control.

A nameless terror begins to disrupt her daily life, and in spite of the prescriptions from her doctor, Barbara is consumed by crippling anxiety and panic attacks. Who once had been a strong and successful woman had now become a shadow of her former self, engulfed in paralysis and fear. When Barbara finds herself unable to leave her apartment, she decides to take action into her own hands.

She doesn’t want more pills; she wants answers. But this is only the start of her downfall—as Barbara stops taking her medicine, her so-called perfect life further unravels at an alarming rate. She quickly learns of the inept mental health system in the United States, but ultimately finds solace in another patient who helps her rediscover her voice and identity.

I'm Dancing As Fast As I Can is a strikingly honest look at a life gone off the rails. Throughout her journey, Gordon's hope and strength make her an incredible heroine worth rooting for.

Barbara Gordon is the author of the best-selling drug-addiction memoir, I'm Dancing as Fast as I Can. In addition to having been a writer for NBC's The Today Show, Barbara is also a three-time Emmy award-winning filmmaker. She has written for Parade and numerous other magazines. She has given scores of lectures and speeches throughout the U.S.