If Only I Were God: One Man’s Solution to the Problem of Pain and Suffering

Why would a loving God allow so much pain and suffering? It's the question that has stumped philosophers, theologians, and everyday believers for centuries — and the one that sits at the heart of every honest conversation about faith and doubt.

If Only I Were God is a work of Christian apologetics that tackles this age-old dilemma head-on. Drawing on logic, the latest findings of science, real stories of ordinary people, and the insights of respected theologians and philosophers, Frank M. Fanella builds a compelling, original case for understanding suffering not as proof against God's existence, but as an essential part of His design.

This book is for anyone wrestling with hard questions about faith — skeptics, believers in a season of doubt, students of theology and philosophy, or book clubs and small groups looking for a discussion-worthy read that doesn't shy away from life's hardest questions.

Chapter by chapter, Fanella builds toward a conclusion that is both intellectually rigorous and deeply hopeful — offering not just answers, but a renewed sense of purpose and trust.

If you've ever asked “why would God allow this?” — this book was written for you.