It was a long-haul following my *presumptive case of COVID-19 incident that I was not neuro-biochemically medically stable. I was sensory processing suffering and with an incurred inability to feel love, I was lost, and found, I was all too open to killing myself.

I couldn't count on the human connection that was 37 years of cumulative love to keep me here. Tormented by neurological glitches converging with no emotional recognition of those whose love was unconditional, it was hard to care to stay for the other bookend of the human condition; death of natural causes.

Like a metaverse mask you never put on yet can't ever take off. Like dentistry sweet air/nitrous oxide you never were given yet can't ever come down from. Like an alcoholic drink you never consumed yet can't ever sober up from.

Like psychedelic drugs you never took yet are stuck in a bad trip of. Like a toothpaste-spatter, smattered bathroom mirror that doesn't matter because you aren't in it anyway.

And with no preexisting history of self-harm ideation... your everyday living is both so confusing and excruciating you're romanticizing 86'ing yourself; The Lesser Of 200 Evils.

To circumvent a suicidal-fluctuating mind, I would have to create an inner-narrative and outer-world in which dissociative wasn't an abuser but my muse. To survive it I would have to and it was in doing this that I found metamorphosis; the Stephoenix; how to turn my pain into my power.

I feel my memoir is a story of a journey that people living with the difficult impact of neurological long Covid (and other neurological calamities, and/or conditions), could relate to, benefit from but what's more, find the rare comfort in that is needed, currently underrepresented and that I speak to.

*A presumptive case of COVID-19 is a case where a patient's medical record documentation supports a diagnosis of COVID-19, even if the patient does not have a positive in vitro diagnostic test result in his or her medical record. (hrsa.gov)

"About this title" may belong to another edition of this title.

Store Description

Visit Seller's Storefront

Seller's business information

Schwabe Books, Inc. DBA Books From California
51 W. Easy St., Simi Valley, CA, 93065, U.S.A.

Sale & Shipping Terms

Terms of Sale

Refunds Offered Within 10 days of order.

Greg Schwabe
Books From California
51 W. Easy St
Simi Valley, CA. 93065

Fax # 805-582-9513
For questions, please email at
abesales@booksfromca.com

Shipping Terms

Shipping costs are based on books weighing 2.2 LB, or 1 KG. If your book order is heavy or oversized, we may contact you to let you know extra shipping is required.

Shipping rates within U.S.A.

Shipping rates within U.S.A.
Order quantity	5 to 14 business days	3 to 6 business days
First item	US$ 4.99	US$ 6.95

Delivery times are set by sellers and vary by carrier and location. Orders passing through Customs may face delays and buyers are responsible for any associated duties or fees. Sellers may contact you regarding additional charges to cover any increased costs to ship your items.