"Not Meant to Be"

It's a story of an average man. Everything he tried he seemed to fail. A ball player, a trumpet player, a singer, an actor, it just never happened. Luck? Never! And you need luck, or it's "not meant to be".

As you can see, my life so far hasn't been too bad? too good? I might have been a different person if I had a decent father. My mother? For what I put her through, I try to make it up to her. She had a hard life, but the hurt was there at the time, and I never realized it, and maybe now after all these years if she understands, she would forgive me? for I was a rotten kid to her, because of that so called father. I'm sorry Ma, I love you, forgive me?As for Sister Ann, all I can say is I love her yet, and I'll love her till the day I die. Even though she denies having been in love with me all that time, and she's 80 years old. It's like a treasure you have buried for so many years, and you go and dig it up, and it's not there anymore, where did it go? Where? Sister Ann was my treasure, so beautiful, and that treasure was taken away from me. Maybe if she was dead I wouldn't feel this way, maybe? but it's what's in my heart, and the feelings I still have for her, because everybody has a secret somewhere, but deny it. I thought my secret was to always love, and be loved by Sister Ann, for she was my first love, but she broke my heart after all these years, why? why?For the women I had, and the women I never mentioned, we did have a good time, didn't we? But did you notice all the women said they were 39 years old? (Ha) Maybe they learned that from Jack Benny, but I'm going to tell you something, some of them let you touch their tits, and some didn't, some of them let you touch their pussy's, and some didn't, some wanted to get laid right away, and some didn't, and some couldn't wait to get your cock in their mouth, and some wouldn't dream of it, figure women out? Never! But it was fun trying.My wife and children, I can only say, I love you all. A good husband, was I? A bad father? So what I never really left home did I? or fooled around? Did I?When I leave this crazy world you can say, he wasn't so bad, and then play my music and say, hey, he was pretty good, but it jus