Memory flashbacks: Emotion, sacrifice and mercy

Flashback with expressed feeling of emotion and sacrifice. The memory Flashback is painful what brings up episodes of past occurred incidents of both; unpleasant parts what causes dreadful paining, displease feelings and distress. My personal experience and it’s very painful. The dear belonging parts of past causes missing feelings, nostalgia and makes one to desire to go back. This feeling is very distressing. It’s not only that it isn’t possible to go back, looking back to time those moments were as such, I had no control on those moments being a child I was helpless, where I couldn’t do anything to help the situation, or to do something differently on my behalf would change anything, thinking back now neither should be remorse being not at fault, rather been in a suffering state myself. Overall, all together, it resulted to formed my psychological complication.
Psychology and memory complexity; Instinctive Response to instantaneous. The maxim, "heart responds faster than head" it's true in my sensory condition. The heart reacts to the sense before the head can Interpret the sensory matter. The gut-reaction is very highly instantaneous, it triggers quickest heart palpitations, by reacting to its sensory mode, and causes disturbing in instinctive response. Instantly, the mind goes into sleep mode, result to withdraw by confusion, as the natural reaction it seeks to escape the complexity. Per to he complexity, the super-fast reaction of the guts and hearts accelerates, speeds up to fastest reaction.