Notes from a Developing Dad: The Laughs, Loves, Learnings and Losses of a Well Meaning but Overmatched Man.

Follow along with me as I fumble through the first few years of fatherhood in real time. A father to two young boys I've been documenting the transformations, the stumbles, the minor successes that resonate like world changing victories and the hysterical fails that remind me that children are literally made to survive our shortcomings. Hell, they can even thrive in the face of them. Before becoming a dad I had no idea how it would change me. I tended to think of it all as what I'd be losing. Sure, I was excited to meet my kids, but I was worried about a life choice that would alter every moment of the rest of my life. So when my first arrived and I fell in love with him, I knew it was time to strap in for a crazy ass ride. There are moments early on when it's all so much that your walls come down and there's beauty, unbelievable love and sheer terror all around at all times. I knew I had to write it out. I didn't want to ever lose these moments to time and future priorities. So I did, I wrote it out. In personal essays documenting my changes, their changes and our changes. Some is funny as hell, some is heartbreakingly tender and some is sharply observant. All of it is written with candor and love. I hope you enjoy it and thank you for taking the time to be here, now.