In And Out Of Focus

All I want to do is sleep, but when I sleep I dream and when I dream I get the urge. It's an unsetteling urge of pain and pleasure that gives me the high I need to keep moving, to keep living this joke we call life. Just when I hit rock bottom though, right when I'm about to take the plunge I desire so much, she walks into my life and changes everything. It's because of her now that I keep going, keep moving and keep fighting through. But how long will it last? I love her but the urge seems to break through and now I have to make a decision. Do I follow the only woman I've ever loved or do I listen to the only thing I could ever reley on to help get me through the day. It's so hard to decide when everything is shifting in and out of focus.