Sense of Self

Caleb has always felt like an outsider. His family sees him as a disappointment. His boyfriend keeps him a secret. At the gym where he works, he’s surrounded by bodies he’ll never have - a daily reminder of the one he does. Convinced he’s unlovable and unwanted, Caleb decides there’s only one way out.

But when a stranger pulls him back from the edge and welcomes him into a warm, accepting community, Caleb dares to hope. For the first time in his life, he feels safe and wanted. The group prays to a god he’s never heard of, but their love seems real, and their faith is so strong that Caleb doesn’t hesitate to join in when invited.
Until the dreams begin.

A long-forgotten god whispers to Caleb in the dark, its voice gentle and loving. And when the prayers turn to rituals, and the rituals turn to blood, Caleb is forced to ask: Is this the cost of belonging? Or is he being shaped into something else?
As he descends into a faith soaked in mystery and flesh, Caleb must confront the question that has haunted him all his life: Is being loved worth losing yourself completely?