Verses From a Twisted Mind

Hello and welcome to the scriptures, poems and songs from the deep corners within the darkness that is my "twisted mind".

During my battle with the demons inside; the depression and anxiety. I started writing it out and this, this is what happens when you hand the pen to the demons within...

My writing is part empathic connection to those i care for, part truth and part fiction. Lines with double meanings and play on words to keep the mind twisted.

Maybe you can relate, maybe you will understand better the way depression molds the mind and maybe there is but one passage that helps you. If so then I will consider that the greatest gift of all.

Graphic subject matter and ideas portrayed from the rawest of thought and emotion.

Hello, my name is Jordan A, Rippel. I grew up in the small town of Houston B.C, where as a child and teen I spent my time camping, swimming in the lakes and rivers, training in taekwon-do, riding bmx and dirt bikes in the summer. Building forts and playing with friends, hunting with my dad every fall, as well as riding snowmobiles in the mountains during the winters. I was a happy go lucky induvidual, never cared about what anyone thought and loved to laugh and make people laugh. Life for me was headed down the path of being the popular one. You know, the guy everyone knew and whose name would bring a smile to your face. Then at the age of ten I had something change within me. I remember watching t.v with the family and like the snap of the fingers my mind opened. I started questioning existance and the purpose of life. The truth behind the unawnsered questions within religion and within the rules set in life in general. I began seeing things a lot differently, I began feeling pain with no probable cause. I fell into a state of depression, I didn't know what to do with myself, I didn't know what the purpose of living was and felt that life was the greatest waste of time. "Why are we even here? Why do we exist? What is the point? If god made us, who made him? Existance has a beginning and nothing appears from no where, the story is flawed." I battled these thoughts everyday, and with more questions came more depressive tendancies. I ended up losing my smile and my place amongst friends due to being down. My hyper active thoughts and left of center opinions have often been the wedge between me and the masses. Though I see the patterns I have stayed the same, philosophocal, annalytical, problem solving and highly in tune with who I am. I have found my answers, I have found my peace, I have found self love and most important I have found my way to cope. Cope with my feelings and derranged thoughts that would otherwise tear me apart from the inside out.