CHAPTER 1
Welcome In:
Regrets
Against smooth flesh, softly brushing its surface.
Yielding at the first signs of "Grace and Glory."
Slammed through and down to the spirit, now holding pride.
Left to wallow and shout to the night sky.
So face it clearly, give us "Honor and Grace."
Lord, of all that holds the bond of man and nature.
Give forth our meanings and poetic mounds of faith.
Kiss the nothing that stands between us.
Held calm and gently as we fade.
Exploding furiously in the eyes of the child's charm.
Held not to mean anything more for us to bear.
As it slides across and makes its way through.
Have we anything to state, other than truth?
Given and received, now growing between our faiths.
We must face the fact, that these are our fates to keep.
UP-Side
Go further than the streams, breaking all your hopes.
Go deeper into the ashes, and below all the notes.
Give forth our reasons, and love us till daybreak.
Left aside at the front, and waiting for you in shame ...
Brought to attention, then it rains down over the child.
Left in the front, waiting for maybe some guidance.
Please give him an outlet, let him breathe again today.
The child wants only to live in the light.
To stand humble with God, "For his soul to be saved."
We've asked nothing more than to drink of the pure.
We've demanded nothing, other than to exist forevermore.
Go now further than the edge of our human natures and dreams.
Go one more step than your shadowed eyes can see ...
Let the wind hold you up, as God whispers the way through.
Let these kisses keep you warm, held both calm and true.
Please allow this child to breathe again today.
Once God answers these questions.
"Our souls can then be saved."
Three Points
Ten thousand years away from ever knowing how.
A million times a day, it pushes and shouts.
Ever through and-round, in the deepest part of our souls.
Binding the lord's honor, taking the soldier home.
Ancient paint, now falling off from the frame.
Trivial words still ringing, through the child's brain.
Mother wants to save us, but we can never allow.
Give us our identities, then set them upon our crowns.
Father now holds the reason, Lord of all that continues the flow.
Still the other waits silent, "in darkness and all alone."
We venture now further, to prove what we already know.
Ever through and-round, in the deepest part of our souls.
Bind and break the temptations, then let mercy ring stiff.
So now it begins to sting us, burning just under the wrist.
So take it slowly and rhyme another sort of logic-break.
Between God and the Devil, humanity and this fate ...
Set Not - Now Gone
Uneven, as it spills over this tongue.
No-reason left in the sink, burning till gone.
Mindless points to be made, when no one's home.
So to bite and gnaw at the phone line, "now all alone."
Justice flowing, in the open line to the Far-Away.
Embracing the moonlight, as the numbing songs pull you away.
Dreamless nights of when honor meant everything.
Now set off to the side, gone and no one can see ...
Drifting down where no human can reach.
Left in the basement, "Set not – Now gone."
Left in a wonder, drifting away with those songs.
So uneven, as it all spills over this tongue.
And so many mindless points to be made.
"When no one's home ..."
Ratchet-Jaw
Twist it to the last point, then let it break.
Turn the handle to the left, but it won't just wait.
Take another Mercy-Shot, then drown the shame in your eyes.
Please hold onto that one remaining thread.
Before we all fade back to the Dark-Side ...
Hold up one hand if you're ready for rejoice.
Hold up your heart if you're ready to rest.
Lift your eyes to the heavens and stars.
Hold your breath, "because dreams can go far ..."
Now push down onto the chain.
Bite-hard, and rip the shadow to the gray.
Lift only to see the face of their distorted Gods.
Now pull it another way, against the grain.
"And take these new points too far ..."
Hold one hand up if you're ready for redemption.
Hold your hands together if you're ready to be judged.
Push not your anger onto the children.
Lift them to the heavens with your hearts.
Twist the wrong word, till it means something more.
Turn the handle to the left, bind-snap and now on the floor.
So be ready to shut the curtains and lock your door.
Forever now and just a little more.
Upon and through, all that meant something back then.
Now in the jaws of anger and remorse.
We took it too far once, now locked behind an open door.
Not Today
Above yet never to know.
Alone in the hollow, drifting with the embers and smoke.
Not meant to mean anything to you.
Still you lay awake, so confused.
I'm not ready to take you there with me.
I believe you're not ready to open your eyes to that dream.
Not ready until the song is done.
Not today – not till I'm gone.
Keep Me Going
Daylight fading, again now the sunlight falls away.
Endless, as all wonder leaves us behind.
"How many more miles must I go?"
Before this all subsides ...
Taken now and reborn when the moon gives reason.
Left far beyond and at the beginning of a new sort of strive.
Was there ever a motive to this thing inside my head?
The voices ringing, still bringing me close to the edge.
Those vows still keep me going.
All of what I held means more now today.
It all keeps me afoot, and gets me out of the rain.
So far on and through so many pains.
It keeps me going ...
Knowing that I'm still, "just at the start."
Please keep me going, take me to the stars ...
Love me again the way you once did.
Please keep me going, far – far passed the end.
Remember?
Below all of the endless piles of paper and ink.
Through all the years of blood, sweat, tears and pain.
There is not much that rings more than this.
There is not much that keeps me alive.
Other than the fading thought of you and I ...
But it takes more than just sweet words.
It means more than you would come to know.
But try as you may, to set it all straight.
And prove that "I" was indeed the monster in the end.
True, yet not ever to ring more than Pride.
Can you remember our first kiss and fight?
True to the end, but then it all fades.
Can you even remember, this hollow man's face?
The awesomeness, of the life that I gave for you.
Will you ever remember, how much I had bled for you..?
Chance
Shoved under the sand, a million miles of grief.
Left under the shadow, in a daze of anger and disbelief.
Drowning in a pool, of what they call a Hollow-Shot.
Still here under the granite, giving chance a second thought.
Hopeless waiting for maybe a little kiss of faith.
Still waiting for time to take its toll and wipe away this fate.
Under and knowing, of how little a soul I have left.
Still I sit here alone, giving thought of that one last chance.
Broken under the rainfall, then washed away with the dirt.
Shoved under the notebook, erased and burned.
Left alone in a ponder, of how I seem to destroy all.
How long must I wander, through the cold and frost?
Still anger is steaming, seeming to know no bounds.
So many miles, under the sea but never will I drown ...?
Left in a pool, of what they call an empty shot.
Still under the granite, giving chance a second thought.
Waiting ...
Go ahead and call it ...
If you wish to live a lie and dwell in shame.
Go ahead and lock it ...
Because you know it will never be the same.
Memories of all that rings numb.
Still fighting for a chance to make this right.
Pointless hatred, shoved deep into your lungs at night.
Then salt stands as a brick.
Keeping the two points from ever becoming one.
There's nothing the angel can do now.
"Just weep and load the gun."
Soon an ending, when God gives the command.
That's why I've been waiting here.
Forever under the dirt, dust and ash ...
Restless
No one answers, as I call out into the night.
No one's there, to guide me out and to the light.
Night-fall has given, and still I have nothing but this.
How many times must I fall, before I can hit..?
Awake in the morning - still day holds the gift.
Of so many tears I have given.
"Endlessly they fall into the abyss."
Night-break has taken, all my hopes into the grave.
But you shouldn't worry, for a soul that shall never be saved.
And still it's haunting, I just can't seem to escape.
So I think I can just let go for now.
Still restless, I lie awake ...
Voice Of Ember
Light falls through, the raindrop now frozen.
Passion pulls through, and fate pauses for a moment.
Tell us that love wasn't true, and take this heartbeat away.
Hold the key to the sky and see what stands on the other side ...
Rapid teardrops beating onto the concrete.
Smoke now subsides, showing only a tired dream.
Correction of the defect, held as "Human Nature."
It dances in our hopes, and strolls through the graveyard.
Sweet little nothings that our minds need not know.
Dancing upon the shadow, lifting above the smoke.
It pushes aside the nightmare, and holds us down to this.
It dances behind our eyes, leading to the abyss.
Unwilling but still a little nauseous.
Unyielding and never to give more than that.
The voice, it sings its song to our souls.
Guiding the way back to the grave.
It takes its time and holds us calm.
Leading us to the other side, of this fleeting day ...
Child Fears
So long in the waiting, still hoping someone will care.
The child still dreams of forgetting.
Only to lie awake in his eternal despair.
Fate called the moment.
Then it all slipped to the side – away.
Still he waits for morning.
"Forever the dreamer lies awake ..."
Stuck in the middle.
There was once a line drawn, now only ash.
He lies awake in the knowing.
That his nightmares will never pass.
So long in the hoping, still giving Grace a chance.
The child dreams of forgetting.
"Yet knows his fears will never pass ..."
Head-Ache
Nothing seems to stop it.
Soon it will take control and end the light.
Nothing seems to heal it.
Please give me strength to end this night.
Walls spinning, taking me deep into the ground.
Now my body freezing.
"This pain knows no bounds."
Frantic-frenzied-fortitude-failing.
Blind-bold-belligerent-bailing.
Sore-sanctioned-steaming-sorrow.
Mindless pointless dreams of tomorrow ...
Non-stop thoughts of redemption.
Endless mounds of my meaningless strive.
My head will never stop pounding.
So pull the trigger, and turn out the lights ...
"Turn out the lights ..."
Shot in the Dark
Maybe on another level.
Somehow you'll find out what it means.
Maybe you could just wait for an answer.
Or just close your eyes and welcome the dream ...
So take the hand of the monster.
Let him guide you to the lake.
Hold onto the wing of the angel.
Let the rain clean off the slate ...
Hear the song of the dreamer.
Let the honor take you away.
Please hold your questions until this is over.
Now gone, done and buried away ...
Clawing
So many scars.
I've lost count over the years.
So many broken hearts.
Drowning in these tears.
Miles away and so much un-said.
Hours a day, in and through my head.
It's been some time now.
But still the scar remains.
I could scrub all I want.
Yet forever I am stained.
So many tears.
Flowing over the edge.
So many years.
Echoes beating inside my head.
Never to subside, or fade with time.
It will never stop ringing.
Still these scars remain on the line.
And nothing will ever change it.
"I need now only to close my eyes ..."
Elapsed
It's been some time now.
So many dreams gone and faded grim.
It's been so long now.
Yet still this hope stands upon a single whim.
Fright forgot, yet never lost.
Pain still beating, reminding us who we are.
Love now decayed, yet passion still rains.
Flooding the pool, held as our hearts ...
The thoughts have passed.
Romance now elapsed.
Gone and faded when you wouldn't hold on.
It's been some time now.
And still you're gone ...
This Taste
Not remembered, yet still it's here.
Forever left to splinter, breaking the tears.
Miles of heartache and so much left unsaid.
It's been so long now, and still we're dead ...
Endless as it falls down.
Sinking below, to the bottom of the sea.
It's still so very far away.
Yet no one shall ever take this from me.
It's rising higher.
Damn this bitter taste in my throat.
It's lifting faster.
Soon I'll begin to choke.
Nothing nor no one.
Shall ever take away who I am.
And damn this taste, of the graveyard sands ...
Knock – Knock!
Is someone there, standing at the end of the hall?
Does someone care, for this forgotten child's wants?
Will fate answer these questions?
Or am I left to seek what can never be found....?
Is anyone home, or am I by myself again?
Does anyone care, for this man's ignorant whims?
Please shuffle the last point, then let it go.
End this logic, far out and so unknown ...
For no more reasons, only pride.
For only now, shall I rest my eyes.
So tell me - who's there, standing at the end of the hall.
Is anyone out there, or am I still lost ...?
Bleeding Spirit
So now it's passing, forever grim upon my lips.
Fate gave us the motive, but left us sick.
Now truth holds out the reasons.
Yet nothing can heal this bleeding spirit ...
Left wide open and dry in the sun.
Baking away all that held grace and now it's done.
Soon God will end it and let the credits roll.
But for now we move onward.
Trying to stay warm in this cold ...
Reason can't take us any further than here.
Pain may speak the truth, yet it's nothing we'd want to hear.
So now it's passing and leaving behind only remorse.
Nothing can heal this bleeding spirit.
"As no one can save this forsaken ghost."
Humble Whispers
It only matters when you want it to.
It only mattered to me and you.
There was that emotion, now only a stain.
It keeps us in check and leaves us in shame.
Hours left nothing, now it sings through.
Warming our nightmares, and taking our youths.
So there is truly, only those humble whispers.
Holding us, when no one's close.
It makes its way through, and holds us bare.
I once feared it, but now I'm there ...
We can't out run it, still it sings its way inside.
The whisper of those memories.
That shall haunt us until we die.
Love – Love?
Still a voice stands out in the dark.
Ten million emotions tearing me apart.
It brings me back, to that last standing day.
Still my heart lays frozen, bleeding acid-rain.
Her kiss as rough as nails against my cheek.
Sliding down and now my eyes begin to bleed.
Passion once held it all "now only pain."
Love meant so much, now just another whim to hate.
Forgiveness was left behind, but never forgot.
Remorse was the name I'd bear, and still I tremble in shock.
Love was once my world, now only a distant star.
My emotions could mean so much.
But they never took me far ...
Divine Loathing
Speak no - one last thing and still you wait.
Take no remaining hope and still these bones shake.
Gather all the dust that you can find.
Eat all the ashes, then close your eyes.
Wait ten counts, then let it fall.
Reach into the abyss, to feel nothing at all.
Time can't stop it, only delay its fate.
It seems so divine, your lustful hate ...
So reach in a little deeper, take what you can grab.
I've had quite enough, so please end the gab.
Speak no – one last thought and still you wait.
It seems so divine "your loathing of me ..."
