When I Hated God: The Seven Questions That Saved My Faith A raw, honest lifeline for anyone furious at God, doubting everything, or wondering if faith can survive the worst pain life can inflict.
Have you ever whispered — or screamed — the words no Christian is supposed to say out loud?
“God, I hate You right now.” “If You’re real, why did You let this happen?” “I don’t even know if I believe anymore.”
If those thoughts have kept you awake at night, ashamed, isolated, or terrified that your faith is over — this book was written for you.
Dr. Bobby Bressman has spent over 35 years as a pastor, hospice chaplain, and certified grief professional sitting at thousands of deathbeds and kitchen tables where faith was shattering. He’s held hands with the dying, wept with families who lost everything, and walked through his own devastating losses — including the sudden death of his father when Bobby was just eight years old.
He’s heard the same seven brutal, honest questions again and again from people who once loved God deeply but now feel abandoned, betrayed, or numb:
- Are You even there, God?
- Do You really care about my pain?
- Was my faith ever real, or just wishful thinking?
- How can I trust a God who let this happen?
- Will the anger ever end, or will it destroy me?
- Can I still love a God I don’t understand?
- Is there hope on the other side of this?
When I Hated God doesn’t rush to tidy answers, Bible verses that feel like clichés, or quick-fix prayers. Instead, it gives you permission to ask the dangerous questions — the ones the Bible itself includes — and shows how real people (Job, David, Jeremiah, Elijah, even Jesus on the cross) asked them too… and how God met them in the wrestle.
This is not another book that tries to explain your suffering away. It is an invitation to bring your rage, your silence, your doubt, and your heartbreak directly to the God who is not afraid of any of it.
Readers say:
- “Finally — someone who understands that ‘I hate God right now’ can be the beginning of real faith, not the end.”
- “I’ve read dozens of grief books. This is the first one that didn’t make me feel guilty for being angry.”
- “It saved my faith when I thought it was gone forever.”
Inside you’ll find:
- Unflinching stories from hospital rooms, gravesides, and living rooms where faith was tested to the breaking point
- Direct biblical encounters with people who questioned God fiercely — and were met with presence, not punishment
- Practical reflection questions, simple prayers, and a 7-week journal guide to help you wrestle honestly
- Hope that is hard-won, not cheap — anchored in the God who wept at Lazarus’s tomb and cried “Why?” from the cross
If you’re sitting in the dark, fists clenched, wondering if God is even worth the fight… you are not alone. You are not disqualified. You are not done.
Pick up this book today if you’re ready for an honest conversation instead of easy answers — and discover the deeper, more durable faith that can only be born in the trenches.
Perfect for:
- Anyone grieving a spouse, child, parent, or friend
- Christians experiencing a crisis of faith after loss, betrayal, diagnosis, or trauma
- Hospice families, pastors, counselors, and grief support group members
- People who feel Christianity’s “happy” answers no longer fit their reality
Start reading now — because the God who met Job in the whirlwind, Elijah in the cave, and a furious woman in her living room three days after her husband’s funeral… is waiting to meet you too.
