Why I Am Mad at God

What do you do when God feels silent? What happens when your prayers seem unanswered, your faith begins to crack, and life delivers news that changes everything? After receiving a devastating Stage 4 cancer diagnosis, Benel found himself asking questions many believers are afraid to speak aloud: Why me? Why now? God, are You even listening? Why am I so angry with You? In this deeply honest memoir, Benel shares the emotional and spiritual journey from anger, fear, and disappointment to a quieter, stronger faith. Without clichés or easy answers, he explores what it means to wrestle with God, survive suffering, and discover that faith is not the absence of doubt—it is the courage to keep walking through it. Why I Am Mad at God is for anyone who has ever questioned Heaven, struggled through pain, or wondered if God had forgotten them. Above all, it is a reminder that even when God feels silent, you are never truly alone.