C.J. LOVE

BOOK TITLE: A Promise to Kill

SUB-TITLE: Behind the Mask

From a child abuse survivor and still standing.

The Title "A Promise to Kill" came about as a result of watching my mother being brutally attacked as her blood painted the floors and walls, at five years old the 'beast' within me yearned for revenge and I painfully traded my mother's blood for a MASK with a promise of killing her assailant.

As the years go by my little world became confused, troubled, damaged, rebellious and vengeful, which was deeply misunderstood by everyone,

"GONE TOO SOON" Days after the death of my beloved mother the streets became my only home. A Promise to Kill book tells the story of my childhood pain, tears and abuse and how I survive living a lonely and painful life on the heartless streets. This is my story, my life, my message: This book is not about a confession of a killer, but merely a message for the readers to understand, that, what I did was out of LOVE, PROTECTION and SURVIVAL.

The emotional and psychological complications following abuse are usually long-term.

(Funny how one moment changes many)

TABLE OF CONTENTS

CHAPTER 1 Bloody Flash Back....................................... 23

CHAPTER 2 The Beast Within......................................... 27

CHAPTER 3 Mother's Love, Daughter's Game............... 31

CHAPTER 4 Deadly Intentions......................................... 35

CHAPTER 5 Divine Protection........................................ 43

CHAPTER 6 Entering Hell Backwards.............................. 47

CHAPTER 7 Little Bastard............................................... 80

CHAPTER 8 Money Love and Pain.................................. 85

CHAPTER 9 Tears of Blood............................................ 118

CHAPTER 10 Farewell My beloved............................... 125

CHAPTER 11 Forbidden Blood...................................... 134

CHAPTER 12 Cursed from Birth.................................... 150

CHAPTER 13 Love has Many Faces.............................. 167

CHAPTER 14 God Sent Me an Angel............................. 178

CHAPTER 15 Black Stallion.......................................... 192

CHAPTER 16 Soaring Eagle........................................... 199

CHAPTER 17 The Lost Sheep Return............................ 218

CHAPTER 18 When Love Hurts..................................... 231

CHAPTER 19 The Foot Prints........................................ 237