Anthony Wayne Allen

I am extremely shy . attaWhen my mom passed away unexpectedly from a heart attack. I would try to convince my mom that I was s good son. Hoping my mom would somehow come to miss her oldest son. Ilvv lllwas starved of that feeling u get when u know someone care about you. I had tried to replace my mom by calling tina my stepmom the title name of M0M.

I would forever be seeking that motherly feeling. I didn't know the anger and hurt j felt towards everyone. The one person I pray for was my little sister. I always have tried to protect her.

I can't help but think back and I can see why she couldn't deal with her past. I see why my Mom refused to talk about the past. I was healing and she stayed feeling guilty.

My mom couldn't deal with the past and the things that had happened to me. It was to much for her to Carry. I will be left wthe unanswered questions. No answer at all is a statement it self. I now need professional help. I can't handle all this at once