How I Stayed Alive When My Brain Was Trying to Kill Me: One Person's Guide to Suicide Prevention

“Sue Blauner’s you-are-there account . . . offers insight and understanding to anyone who has been touched by suicide.”―Joan Anderson, author of A Year by the Sea

An epidemic of international proportions, suicide has touched the lives of nearly half of all Americans, yet is rarely talked about openly. In this timely and important book, Susan Blauner breaks the silence to offer guidance and hope for those contemplating ending their lives―and for the loved ones who want to help them.

A survivor of multiple suicide attempts, Blauner eloquently describes the feelings and fantasies surrounding suicide. In a direct, nonjudgmental, and loving voice, she offers affirmations and suggestions for those experiencing life-ending thoughts, and for their friends and family. Here is an essential resource destined to be the classic guide on the subject.

Susan Rose Blauner is a powerful voice in the fields of mental wellness and suicide prevention. She has the unique distinction of transforming 18 years of suicidal ideation, multiple suicide attempts, four psychiatric hospitalizations, and more than 25 years of therapy into the internationally-acclaimed book, "How I Stayed Alive When My Brain Was Trying to Kill Me" (HISA). 


Blauner is a sought-after public speaker, suicide prevention expert, advocate, and educator. She delivers keynotes, and leads workshops and trainings throughout the Unites States. In 2012, Blauner presented at the Department of Defense Annual Suicide Prevention Conference. She conveys strategies and philosophies aimed at de-escalating suicidal thoughts, managing depressive symptoms, and addressing the complexities of post-traumatic stress disorder. She also teaches loved ones and mental health professionals how to best support individuals struggling with mental health challenges. 


In 2008, Blauner decided to return to graduate school for a social work degree to become a therapist. Four days before the start of the program, she was diagnosed with breast cancer. Blauner spent much of the next two years in treatment. She returned to school in 2013 and will graduate with a MSW degree in 2015, at the age of 50. She believes that anything is possible and that every human being is capable of ultimate potential.

The National Council on Suicide Prevention, The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention, and numerous national organizations and renowned institutions endorse HISA and Blauner's work.