To Remember Love, Two Promises That Led Me to the Notes in the Ashes - Softcover

Ferguson, Tonya

Softcover

ISBN 10: 0984777202 ISBN 13: 9780984777204

Publisher: Songcatcher Productions, 2011

Synopsis

"to remember love" two promises that led me to the notes in the ashes
lived and written by Tonya Ferguson

"This Book Is An Umbrella To Hold On Your Stormiest Days"

 "to remember love," is truly "A Book With A Heartbeat." You will feel it come to life within you, with each page you turn. This is a book that knows no boundaries. Men and women, 15-115 years old, can only come away changed after reading the heart of this Author. Tonya's words gives the term "unconditional love," a whole new meaning. Anyone who has experienced the tragedies of real life, the joy of real love, and the heartbreak of real loss, will gain truth, compassion, comfort, and encouragement from this book. You will see someone that's in your life on the pages of "to remember love." As we're rapidly becoming a Caregiving Nation, this is "one of those books" you will continue to buy and give to people you care about, as a source of healing.

From The Book:
As far back as I can remember my mother had a dream of one day writing a book. She told the best stories when I was a child and I believe she really did have a book in her that needed to be written. How were any of us to know that before she would be able to fulfill her dream she would be dealt such a horribly cruel blow. I guess in some ironic way my mom's dream did come true, but with one major twist. Instead of writing her book she "became" her book.

From The Book:
I'm not sure of the exact day or time it became a member of my family. I do know that by the time it made itself known, it had already been with us for several years. I don't remember the exact moment things turned from being something I could easily explain away, to the crushing reality there was an unwelcome stranger, intruding itself into my family. I just remember the moment I realized how much I despised this horrible thing that had forced itself into our lives.

~  From page 5 of "to remember love"  ~
No matter how hard I try, I'm unable to "organize" this experience in my life.  There isn't a file cabinet big enough to file this away.  I feel like I'm sitting in a tiny rowboat in the middle of a huge ocean and I don't have any oars.  I'm at the mercy of everything going on around me and I have absolutely no control of the situation at all.  What a helpless, hopeless feeling.
 ~  From page 10 of "to remember love"  ~
I'm not sure I will ever be able to express to anyone how that made us feel.  Most children know their parents love them and believe in them. What our parents were willing to do for us, however, went way beyond the "call of duty" for any parent.  For them to completely give up everything they had worked for their entire lives, so we could reach for our dream, means more to me than words will ever be able to express. There's no way to ever give back to them what they gave up for us.  I honestly feel like if there was such a thing as loving so much it hurt, my mother and father would have lived their lives in excruciating pain.
~  From page 14 of "to remember love"  ~
My black hole really began on Monday evening, January 12, 1998.  I wasn't even close to being prepared for the kind of sadness I was about to walk into.  I'm not talking about the kind of sadness you might feel if you lost your wedding ring, got fired from your job, your dog ran away, or you had to move away from all of your friends and family.  The kind of sadness I'm talking about doesn't even have a definition listed in the dictionary.  I think it's because there really aren't any words that can describe this type of sadness.  You see, this kind of sadness permeates every fiber of your being, from the top of your head to the tips of your toes.  It becomes as much a part of you as the very beating of your heart.  It becomes your every breath.  That's the kind of sadness I'm talking about.

About this edition

• Publisher: Songcatcher Productions
• Publication date: 2011
• ISBN 10: 0984777202
• ISBN 13: 9780984777204
• Binding: Paperback
• Number of pages: 198