In Search Of . Finding and Loving My Multi-Dimensional Self

Just when you thought there were no answers . . .

Who you are!

What you are!

Why you are! . . . this book came along. Experience the chaos, healing and ecstasy of the author's life, and come to know your own. FEEL the raw, vulnerable emotion that the author so honestly shares, and release your own. KNOW the author found meaning, identity, purpose and Self love, and find your own. A book to be experienced! With uncompromising honesty and profound philosophical insights, this beautifully produced spiritual autobiography will draw you into a compelling story of a woman's search for revelation, identity and peace. You will experience the despair of her life fraught with childhood abuse, rape, chronic illness, her child's life-threatening illness and her husband's infidelity. You will fall with her to the depths of her abyss where she is consumed by emotional pain, then soar with her to heights otherworldly as she discovers the freedom to forgive, to accept, and to love. In the process of storytelling and narration, she shares the tools she uses for her searching, such as meditation, ritual, Shamanic healing, the Medicine Wheel, and her spirit quest to the magical, ancient Mayan ruin of Tikal, where she courageously confronts her spiritual lineage. You will hear the author's truth as she relates incredible philosophies that go far beyond the truth of our physical world. As Bonnie Marks Hall writes "There has to be more to life than just life, there has to be!" And so begins her searching for truth, of the relationship between that which we are as human, and that which is beyond. Step inside her and walk with her through her development as a psychic FUNNEL, her amazing gift that is similar to channelling but not, where she is able to detach herself from her conscious mind and travel to be with the whole of the collective consciousness. Hear answers to questions, both global and personal, which will speak to you personally. The answers will startle you, astound you, and inspire you to question and search. Are you who you thought you were? Are your beliefs yours, or someone else's? Through this book, you will be challenged to find out. Dare you to journey with Bonnie Marks Hall, and discover your Self!

Bonnie Marks Hall's open and non-traditional approach to spirituality was able to be born because of a lack of early-life religious structure. Bonnie developed a natural freedom to accept or reject religious teachings by what felt right in her soul, unrestricted by childhood conditioning or forced religious dogma. Within the structure of her working life (law, law enforcement and education) and her own personal traumatic experiences: childhood sexual assault by her father, rape as a young adult, her son's life-threatening birth and Attention Deficit and Hyperactive Disorder, her own chronic illness, her husband's infidelity, and, finally, her daughter's emergence into adulthood which catapulted her towards coming to terms with the experiences of her own childhood, she has witnessed the climatic highs and degrading lows of the society in which our humanity exists, and from here her search for understanding, meaning and purpose was defined. As her search grew, her questions became more global and her need to understand much broader than her immediate self.

For most of her adult life, Bonnie has had natural clairvoyant gifts. Her need to search drew her towards understanding these gifts. While she began to read Tarot cards in the late sixties, today she teaches others. She no longer needs to use the Tarot, having developed her intuitive abilities to effectively read energy. As one client wrote to her, "Your reading was damn near right on with everything. You have a rare gift!" She is also a Reiki master and has taken workshops in shamanic development and counselling. Her search even further propelled her to going on a spirit quest to Central America, where she journeyed to the magnificent, ancient Mayan ruins of Tikal in Guatemala and discovered her spiritual lineage.

As a teenager, Bonnie began to write poetry. As her understanding of her life grew, she felt a need to share her views with the world and so wrote a novel, Spirit, a story about a quest for understanding the spiritual self and familial relations. Impulsively, Bonnie was again compelled to write of her insightful and thought-provoking philosophies, which had matured since her writing of Spirit a dozen years before. Bonnie felt what was needed were illustrated stories that could show how those philosophies could be applied to daily life. Somehow those stories became her own life experiences and In Search Of . . . was born. Whereas she started her book with her past traumas, somewhere along the way it became in the moment. As new chapters within her life unfolded, she wrote of her passionate and emotional reactions with total honesty and candor and these writings became a reflection for her own understanding and healing. Whereas In Search Of . . . began for the reader and as a vehicle for expression of her philosophies, it also ended up being for herself, becoming a catharsis of her responses to her tragedies and an enlightened recognition of her ecstasies.