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Susan Hill, a full-time writer since 1963, has written over forty novels, numerous nonfiction books, novellas, short stories, and several books for children. In addition to her writing, she edits short-story compilations, writes a monthly column for the Daily Telegraph, and runs a literary magazine, Books and Company. She has also formed a publishing company, Long Barn Books, inspired by her lifelong admiration for Virginia Woolf and the Hogarth Press. She was a finalist for the Man Booker Prize and has won the Whitbread, Somerset Maugham, and John Llewellyn Rhys awards for her adult novels, as well as the Smarties Prize for a children's book.
Steven Pacey's extensive work in the West End includes the role of Alec in Dolly West's Kitchen, Stanley in The Birthday Party, Hamish in Things We Do for Love, and Bertie Wooster in By Jeeves--for which he earned an Olivier Award nomination. He was also directed by Harold Pinter in his successful productions of Celebration and The Room. Pacey has appeared in numerous television roles, including Tarrant in Blake's 7, and has made over three hundred radio broadcasts.
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They had climbed for two hours. Then they had come into the low-hanging curtains of cloud. It had started to drizzle.
He opened his mouth to make some sour remark about the promise of a fine day, but, at the same moment, Iain turned his head a fraction to the left. Motioned with his forefinger.
Iain knew the hills and the weather of the hills, the subtle shifts of wind direction. Knew them better than anyone.
They stood, still, not speaking. There was a tension now. It hadn’t been there minutes before.
Something.
The sun broke apart the cloud curtain, leaving it in tatters. The sun shone at first with a watery cast but then, like a man leaping out into view, full and strong. The corners of Iain’s mouth twitched in a smile.
But still they stood. Motionless and silent. Waiting.
Iain lifted his binoculars to his eyes and looked from left to right, slowly, slowly.
And he waited, watching the set of Iain’s head, waiting for the moment.
Their clothes began to steam in the sun.
Iain lowered the glasses and nodded.
They were above the deer, and for another half-mile he saw nothing. But they were there of course. Iain knew. They went carefully, keeping upwind. The ground was stony here, easy to slip.
He felt the old excitement. These were the best moments. When you knew. You were this close to it, this close to having it in your sights, this close to the whole point and purpose and culmination of it all.
This close.
There was the faintest outbreath from Iain’s pursed lips.
He followed the line of sight.
The stag was alone, halfway up the lower slope immediately west of where they were standing. It had sensed nothing — that much was clear for the moment. Keep it that way.
They dropped down and began to crawl, the soaking ground against their bellies, the sun on their backs. The midges came on with a vengeance, to find their way unerringly through chinks in clothing, brushing aside the barrier of citronella, but he was so keyed up now he barely noticed them. Later he would be driven mad.
They crawled for another ten minutes, dropping down slightly until they were level with the stag and a couple of hundred yards away.
Iain stopped. Lifted the glasses. They waited. Watched. Still as the stones.
The sun was hot now. The wind had dropped altogether.
They began to inch maybe thirty yards further and the thirty yards took ten minutes; they barely moved. Just enough.
The stag lifted its head.
‘The Old Man,’ Iain whispered, so softly he could barely hear.
The oldest stag. Not as huge as those living on the lower ground, and without the vast antlers. But mighty enough. Old. Too old for another winter. He had too much respect for the beast to let that happen.
They were downwind and perhaps a hundred and fifty yards off. But then the stag shook its head, turned sideways, ambled a little way, though never turning its back. They waited.
Waited. The sun blazed. He boiled inside his wax jacket.
Then, casually, it turned and, in a breathtaking second, lifted its head and faced him full on. As if it knew. As if it had been expecting him. It positioned itself perfectly.
He unslipped his rifle. Loaded. Iain was watching intently through the glasses.
He balanced himself with care and then looked down the sights.
The old stag had not moved. Its head was raised higher now and it was looking straight at him.
It knew.
Iain waited, frozen to the glasses.
The world stopped turning.
He aimed for the heart.
Two
Dark blue jacket. Blue-and-white print skirt. Medium heels.
Scarf? Or the beads?
Beads.
Helen Creedy went into the bathroom and fiddled with her hair. Came out and caught sight of herself again in the full-length mirror. God, she looked — frumpish. That was the only word. As if she were going to a job interview.
She took off the skirt, blouse and jacket and started again.
It was very warm. Late September, an Indian summer.
Right. Pale grey linen trousers. Long linen jacket. The fuchsia shirt she hadn’t yet worn.
Better? Yes. Earrings? Just plain studs.
There was a roar outside as Tom gave his motorbike its usual final rev turning into the drive. The roar died. She heard the clunk of the metal rest going down onto the concrete.
Just after six o’clock. She had hours — got dressed far too early.
She sat down on the end of her bed. She had been excited. Keyed up. Nervous, but with something like pleasure, anticipation. Now, it was as if the temperature had dropped. She felt sick. Anxious. Afraid. How absurd. Then she felt nothing but a draining tiredness so that she could not imagine ever having the energy to stand on her feet again.
The kitchen door slammed. She heard Tom drop his helmet and heavy leather gloves onto the floor.
Pale grey linen. New fuchsia shirt. She had even had her hair done. She wanted to lie down on her bed and sleep and sleep.
After another couple of minutes she went downstairs.
‘Oh, good choice, Ma.’ Elizabeth looked up from her French textbook.
Tom, as always when he got in, was at the toaster. Tom. He had said he was ‘OK’ about it. ‘Fine’ about it. But Helen still wondered.
She had nothing to worry about with Elizabeth, though — it was her daughter who had pushed her into this in the first place. ‘It’s six years since Dad. You won’t have us here for much longer. You’ve got to get a life, Ma.’
But now she caught a look on Tom’s face which was at odds with what he said. That he was ‘OK’ about it. ‘Fine.’
‘I thought you weren’t meeting this guy till eight.’
‘Half seven.’
‘All the same.’
Tom scraped what looked like half a pound of butter and a dollop of Marmite across four slices of toast.
The kitchen got the evening sun. It was warm. Elizabeth’s French books. Pens. Markers. Tom’s Marmite pot, lidless on the table. The smell of warm toast. And bike oil.
‘I can’t go,’ Helen said. ‘I can’t do this. What am I thinking?’
‘Oh God, not again, we’ve been through all this. Tom, tell her, back me up, will you?’
Tom shrugged.
His sister snorted impatiently. Put her pen down on Eugénie Grandet. ‘Right, let’s start again. Is it just first-night nerves or what?’
First-night nerves? How did that even begin to convey what she was feeling, sitting at the kitchen table in pale grey linen and a fuchsia shirt she had never worn and at least an hour too early?
It was a couple of months ago that Elizabeth had said, as they were walking Mutley, on the Hill, ‘I don’t think you’re meeting people.’
Helen had not understood. In her job as a pharmacist she met people every day.
‘I don’t mean that.’ Elizabeth had sat down and leaned her back against the Wern Stone. It was July. Mutley lay panting.
Helen had hesitated, standing, looking at the view over Lafferton so as not to look at her daughter. She sensed that something was important, or that things were about to change but she did not know what or how. It alarmed her.
‘Mum, don’t you think you might . . . well, meet someone — I mean, someone else. After Dad. Sit down, I’m getting a crick in my neck here.’
Helen sat on the dry grass. Elizabeth was looking straight at her. She had always been like this. Helen remembered the night she had been born: Lizzie had looked straight at her in this same, uncompromising way, even though newborn babies were not supposed to focus. She had done it as a small girl when asking a question. That straight, blue-eyed gaze that held you and did not let you off. Here it was now.
‘Before you know it I’ll be at Cambridge, fingers crossed. Tom will be off with his weirdos.’
‘And I’ll be on my own and I won’t be able to function is what you mean.’
‘Not exactly.’
‘What then?’
‘I worry that you’re missing out. You should have someone.’
‘I don’t want to be married again.’
‘How do you know? You may not want to in theory . . . but if you met someone.’
‘Well who’s to say I won’t?’
‘Not stuck in a windowless cubbyhole full of pill packets you won’t.’
‘I like my job.’
‘That’s not the point. Look, I think you should take a more proactive approach to this thing.’
‘There is no “thing”. Come on, Mutley’s too hot. So am I.’
She stood. But when Lizzie also stood, there it was, the direct gaze. Not letting her off. Helen had turned and started back down the Hill so fast she almost slipped on the stony track.
*
She had not wanted to think about it. She wouldn’t think about it. She was perfectly contented. She had met Terry when she was twenty-three, married him a year later, had the children, been happy. When Tom was six she had gone back to work, part-time. Life had been good.
When Terry had been diagnosed with malignant melanoma she was told he would have a couple of years, maybe more. He had had four months. Any sort of relationship with any other man had been — was — unthinkable. She realised as she reached the last few yards of the track that she was angry, angry and in some sort of panic.
‘I think —’ Elizabeth said, catching up with her.
‘Well, I don’t. Leave it. It is not a conversation I am prepared to have.’...
They had climbed for two hours. Then they had come into the low-hanging curtains of cloud. It had started to drizzle.
He opened his mouth to make some sour remark about the promise of a fine day, but, at the same moment, Iain turned his head a fraction to the left. Motioned with his forefinger.
Iain knew the hills and the weather of the hills, the subtle shifts of wind direction. Knew them better than anyone.
They stood, still, not speaking. There was a tension now. It hadn’t been there minutes before.
Something.
The sun broke apart the cloud curtain, leaving it in tatters. The sun shone at first with a watery cast but then, like a man leaping out into view, full and strong. The corners of Iain’s mouth twitched in a smile.
But still they stood. Motionless and silent. Waiting.
Iain lifted his binoculars to his eyes and looked from left to right, slowly, slowly.
And he waited, watching the set of Iain’s head, waiting for the moment.
Their clothes began to steam in the sun.
Iain lowered the glasses and nodded.
They were above the deer, and for another half-mile he saw nothing. But they were there of course. Iain knew. They went carefully, keeping upwind. The ground was stony here, easy to slip.
He felt the old excitement. These were the best moments. When you knew. You were this close to it, this close to having it in your sights, this close to the whole point and purpose and culmination of it all.
This close.
There was the faintest outbreath from Iain’s pursed lips.
He followed the line of sight.
The stag was alone, halfway up the lower slope immediately west of where they were standing. It had sensed nothing — that much was clear for the moment. Keep it that way.
They dropped down and began to crawl, the soaking ground against their bellies, the sun on their backs. The midges came on with a vengeance, to find their way unerringly through chinks in clothing, brushing aside the barrier of citronella, but he was so keyed up now he barely noticed them. Later he would be driven mad.
They crawled for another ten minutes, dropping down slightly until they were level with the stag and a couple of hundred yards away.
Iain stopped. Lifted the glasses. They waited. Watched. Still as the stones.
The sun was hot now. The wind had dropped altogether.
They began to inch maybe thirty yards further and the thirty yards took ten minutes; they barely moved. Just enough.
The stag lifted its head.
‘The Old Man,’ Iain whispered, so softly he could barely hear.
The oldest stag. Not as huge as those living on the lower ground, and without the vast antlers. But mighty enough. Old. Too old for another winter. He had too much respect for the beast to let that happen.
They were downwind and perhaps a hundred and fifty yards off. But then the stag shook its head, turned sideways, ambled a little way, though never turning its back. They waited.
Waited. The sun blazed. He boiled inside his wax jacket.
Then, casually, it turned and, in a breathtaking second, lifted its head and faced him full on. As if it knew. As if it had been expecting him. It positioned itself perfectly.
He unslipped his rifle. Loaded. Iain was watching intently through the glasses.
He balanced himself with care and then looked down the sights.
The old stag had not moved. Its head was raised higher now and it was looking straight at him.
It knew.
Iain waited, frozen to the glasses.
The world stopped turning.
He aimed for the heart.
Two
Dark blue jacket. Blue-and-white print skirt. Medium heels.
Scarf? Or the beads?
Beads.
Helen Creedy went into the bathroom and fiddled with her hair. Came out and caught sight of herself again in the full-length mirror. God, she looked — frumpish. That was the only word. As if she were going to a job interview.
She took off the skirt, blouse and jacket and started again.
It was very warm. Late September, an Indian summer.
Right. Pale grey linen trousers. Long linen jacket. The fuchsia shirt she hadn’t yet worn.
Better? Yes. Earrings? Just plain studs.
There was a roar outside as Tom gave his motorbike its usual final rev turning into the drive. The roar died. She heard the clunk of the metal rest going down onto the concrete.
Just after six o’clock. She had hours — got dressed far too early.
She sat down on the end of her bed. She had been excited. Keyed up. Nervous, but with something like pleasure, anticipation. Now, it was as if the temperature had dropped. She felt sick. Anxious. Afraid. How absurd. Then she felt nothing but a draining tiredness so that she could not imagine ever having the energy to stand on her feet again.
The kitchen door slammed. She heard Tom drop his helmet and heavy leather gloves onto the floor.
Pale grey linen. New fuchsia shirt. She had even had her hair done. She wanted to lie down on her bed and sleep and sleep.
After another couple of minutes she went downstairs.
‘Oh, good choice, Ma.’ Elizabeth looked up from her French textbook.
Tom, as always when he got in, was at the toaster. Tom. He had said he was ‘OK’ about it. ‘Fine’ about it. But Helen still wondered.
She had nothing to worry about with Elizabeth, though — it was her daughter who had pushed her into this in the first place. ‘It’s six years since Dad. You won’t have us here for much longer. You’ve got to get a life, Ma.’
But now she caught a look on Tom’s face which was at odds with what he said. That he was ‘OK’ about it. ‘Fine.’
‘I thought you weren’t meeting this guy till eight.’
‘Half seven.’
‘All the same.’
Tom scraped what looked like half a pound of butter and a dollop of Marmite across four slices of toast.
The kitchen got the evening sun. It was warm. Elizabeth’s French books. Pens. Markers. Tom’s Marmite pot, lidless on the table. The smell of warm toast. And bike oil.
‘I can’t go,’ Helen said. ‘I can’t do this. What am I thinking?’
‘Oh God, not again, we’ve been through all this. Tom, tell her, back me up, will you?’
Tom shrugged.
His sister snorted impatiently. Put her pen down on Eugénie Grandet. ‘Right, let’s start again. Is it just first-night nerves or what?’
First-night nerves? How did that even begin to convey what she was feeling, sitting at the kitchen table in pale grey linen and a fuchsia shirt she had never worn and at least an hour too early?
It was a couple of months ago that Elizabeth had said, as they were walking Mutley, on the Hill, ‘I don’t think you’re meeting people.’
Helen had not understood. In her job as a pharmacist she met people every day.
‘I don’t mean that.’ Elizabeth had sat down and leaned her back against the Wern Stone. It was July. Mutley lay panting.
Helen had hesitated, standing, looking at the view over Lafferton so as not to look at her daughter. She sensed that something was important, or that things were about to change but she did not know what or how. It alarmed her.
‘Mum, don’t you think you might . . . well, meet someone — I mean, someone else. After Dad. Sit down, I’m getting a crick in my neck here.’
Helen sat on the dry grass. Elizabeth was looking straight at her. She had always been like this. Helen remembered the night she had been born: Lizzie had looked straight at her in this same, uncompromising way, even though newborn babies were not supposed to focus. She had done it as a small girl when asking a question. That straight, blue-eyed gaze that held you and did not let you off. Here it was now.
‘Before you know it I’ll be at Cambridge, fingers crossed. Tom will be off with his weirdos.’
‘And I’ll be on my own and I won’t be able to function is what you mean.’
‘Not exactly.’
‘What then?’
‘I worry that you’re missing out. You should have someone.’
‘I don’t want to be married again.’
‘How do you know? You may not want to in theory . . . but if you met someone.’
‘Well who’s to say I won’t?’
‘Not stuck in a windowless cubbyhole full of pill packets you won’t.’
‘I like my job.’
‘That’s not the point. Look, I think you should take a more proactive approach to this thing.’
‘There is no “thing”. Come on, Mutley’s too hot. So am I.’
She stood. But when Lizzie also stood, there it was, the direct gaze. Not letting her off. Helen had turned and started back down the Hill so fast she almost slipped on the stony track.
*
She had not wanted to think about it. She wouldn’t think about it. She was perfectly contented. She had met Terry when she was twenty-three, married him a year later, had the children, been happy. When Tom was six she had gone back to work, part-time. Life had been good.
When Terry had been diagnosed with malignant melanoma she was told he would have a couple of years, maybe more. He had had four months. Any sort of relationship with any other man had been — was — unthinkable. She realised as she reached the last few yards of the track that she was angry, angry and in some sort of panic.
‘I think —’ Elizabeth said, catching up with her.
‘Well, I don’t. Leave it. It is not a conversation I am prepared to have.’...
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