An Exclusive Love - Hardcover

Johanna Adorján

Hardcover

ISBN 10: 1846554543 ISBN 13: 9781846554544

Publisher: London: Harvill 2011., 2010

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About the Author

JOHANNA ADORJÁN, born in 1971 in Stockholm, studied theatre and opera directing. She has worked as an editor and freelance author for various newspapers and magazines. Since 2001 she has been an editor of the culture section of the Frankfurter Allgemeine Sonntagszeitung in Berlin. She has written theatre pieces, as well as a screenplay that has been filmed by Ed Herzog. Johanna Adorján lives in Berlin.
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On 13 October 1991 my grandparents killed themselves. It was a Sunday. Not really the ideal day of the week for suicide.  On Sundays family members call each other, friends drop in to go walking their dogs with you. I’d have thought a Monday, for instance, much more suitable. But there we are, it was a Sunday, it was in October. I picture a clear autumn day, because it all happened in Denmark. My grandparents lived in Charlottenlund, a suburb of Copenhagen where all the houses have gardens and you call your neighbours by their first names. I imagine that my grandmother was the first to wake that morning; I imagine her waking up, and her first thought is that this is the last morning she will ever wake up.  She will never wake up again, and she will only go to sleep once more. My grandmother sits up quickly, pushes back the covers and puts on the slippers that she leaves neatly beside the bed every evening. Then she gets to her feet, a slender woman of seventy-one, smooths out her nightdress, and quietly, so as not to wake my grandfather, she walks the few metres to the door.

In the corridor she is welcomed by Mitzi the dog, wagging her tail. Mitzi is an Irish terrier bitch, a nice dog, phlegmatic, not particularly obedient. My grandmother gets on well with her. She speaks Hungarian to Mitzi. ‘Jó kis kutya,’ says my grandmother when she has quietly closed the bedroom door, good little dog. She has a low bass voice like a man’s, probably as a result of all those cigarettes, she’s a chain-smoker. In my imagined picture of that morning, I could go back again and place a lighted cigarette between her fingers directly after she wakes up, Prince Denmark brand, extra strong (advertising slogan: Prince Denmark for Real Men). Yes, she’ll have lit herself a cigarette once she had her slippers on, at the latest. So as she pats the dog’s head in the passage, quietly closing the bedroom door behind her, the air smells of fresh smoke.

A little later the smell of coffee mingles with the cigarette smoke. A keen nose would also pick up a hint of Jicky by Guerlain. My grandmother has her dressing-gown on, a silk kimono that my father once brought her back from Japan; she wears it loosely belted around her waist, and now she is sitting at the kitchen table. She holds a lighted cigarette between the fingers of her left hand. She has long, elegant fingers, and holds the cigarette very close to her fingertips, as if a cigarette were something precious. My grandmother is waiting for the coffee to finish filtering through the machine.  A fountain pen and a pad of paper lie on the table in front of her.

Anyone seeing my grandmother now might think she was bored. Her eyebrows arch so far above her eyes that they always look as if she were raising them. Heavy lids lend her features a slightly blasé weariness. In photographs from her young days my grandmother looks a little like Liz Taylor. Or Lana Turner. Or some other film star of that period with long dark hair and chiselled cheekbones. She has a short, straight nose and a small mouth with a curving lower lip. Her eyelashes are perhaps a little too short to be perfect, and they are dead straight.

Even on this day, the last day of her life, she is still a beautiful woman. Her skin is tanned a deep, almost dirty brown by the summer sun. Her cheekbones seem to have risen even higher. She wears her hair in a chin-length bob.  With the years it has become wiry, and surrounds her face like a thick, dark grey hood. On the morning of 13 October 1991 my grandmother sits at the kitchen table. As she waits for the coffee to run through the machine, she makes notes of things to do on her spiral-bound pad. Cancel the newspaper, she writes. Get the roses ready for winter. She isn’t wearing glasses, she doesn’t need them even at the age of seventy-one, and she is very proud of the fact. A cigarette glows in the ashtray on the table in front of her. It crackles faintly as the glow eats its way further into the paper. My grandmother writes: Mitzi. When she puts the pen down, a little ink drops off the nib, spreads into a blue mark on the paper and makes the word Mitzi invisible. Never mind. She’s not going to forget about Mitzi. Over the last few days she has gone over her list so often that she can recite the items on it by heart anyway. She switches on the radio, a small, portable plastic set standing beside the toaster. The music is something by Bach. It’s Sunday, after all.
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About this edition

• Publisher: London: Harvill 2011.
• Publication date: 2010
• ISBN 10: 1846554543
• ISBN 13: 9781846554544
• Binding: Hardcover
• Number of pages: 192